NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS!

I usually don't make New Year's resolutions, but since I'm starting a new page in my life, I thought it would be nice to challenge myself. So here they are:



1: Lose Weight

2: Find a Girlfriend

3: Make more friends

4: Don't get down on myself so much

5: Have a better relatioship with God



Well, I'll let ya know at the end of next year if I kept any of em!

WHAT AN IDIOT!

While I was in the Chatroom today, some stupid hardline "Christian" Said that the Tusnamis that his SE Asia were God's way of killing Moslems. What a ****ing idiot! Somehow, I really don't think that God would kill 117,000 people because of their religious views. If I start thinking like that dumbass, you all have permission to shoot me!

WHAT A COMEBACK!

A couple of days ago, my friend Jewels came up with the best comeback/putdown I've ever heard! Some idiot in the chatroom was giving her a hard time, so she said, "Dude, go suck on one of my used tampons!" I laughed my fat ass off for hours! You go girl, you tell em!

A GREAT HONOR!

A couple days ago, my friends Kat and Keith asked me if I'd like to be a Godparent for the baby they're having. Of course, I said yes! I consider it to be a great honor. Since I can't have kids of my own, it would be cool helping guide a little one through life. Check back in 18 years and ask if I had any success:P

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hi everyone! Hope you all had a nice Christmas! things were pretty good in my home. Here's what I got:

Battlestar Galactica DVD Box Set
A new airbrush and compressor
2 pairs of jeans
2 shirts
A new pair of tennis shoes
3 books
lottery tickets
free movie pass
minutes for my phone
socks
rechargable batteries


We went over to my sister's for breakfast, and had a nice turkey dinner at home.

SURPRISE!!!

Today, We pulled a pleasnt trick on my Niece Leah. My Sister and bro in law bought her a new Jeep Liberty for Christmas. On the pretense of going to the dealership to schedule a oil change, they went ot the dealership, My parents and I went in later, and was she Tickled!!

YOU KNOW YOU'RE ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET WHEN...

These are all pretty true!!!



You kiss you girlfriend's home page.

Your bookmarks list takes 15 minutes to scroll from top to bottom.

Your eyeglasses have a web site burned into them.

You find yourself brainstorming for new subjects to Google.

You refuse to go to a vacation spot with no electricity and no phone lines.

You finally do take that vacation, but only after buying a cellular modem and a laptop.

You spend half of the plane trip with your laptop on your lap.... and your kid in the overhead compartment.

Your dreams are in HTML.

You find yourself typing "com" after every period when using a word processor.

You turn your computer off and get this awful epmty feeling, like you just pulled the plug of your loved one.

You refer to going to the bathroom as downloading.

You start introducing yourself as "Jim at I-I-Net dot net dot au"

Your heart races faster and beats irredgularly each time you see a new WWW site address printed on the TV, even though you've never had heart problems before.

You step out of the room and realize that your roomates have moved and you don't have any idea when it happened.

You turn up the volume read loud when leaving the room so you can hear if anyone IM's you.

You wife drapes a blond wig over the monitor to remind you of what she looks like.

All of your friends have an @ in their names.

Looking at a pageful of someone else's links, you notice that you've been to all of them.

Your dog has its own webpage.

You believe nothing looks sexier than a man in boxer shorts illuminated by a 17" LCD Flat-Panel Monitor.

You check your mail. It says "no new messages." So you check it again.

You code your homework in HTML and give your intsructor the URL.

You don't know what sex your three of your closeset friends are, because they have nuetral screennames and you never bothered to ask.

You name your children Google, Friendster and Blogger

You miss more than five meals a week downloading the latest MP3's off Kazaa Lite.

You start looking for hot HTML addresses in public restrooms.

You wake up at 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom and stop and check your e-mail on the way back.

Your virtual girlfriend finds a new sweetheart with a larger bandwidth.

You buy a Captain Kirk Chair with a built in keyboard and mouse.

Your wife makes a new rule: "The computer can not come to bed"

The last hottie you picked up was only a jpeg.

You put a pillow case over your laptop so your lover doesn't see it while youre pretending to catch your breath.

You ask a plumber how much it would cost you to replace the chair in front of your computer with a toilet.

You forget what year it is.

You start tilting your head sideways to smile.

You ask a doctor to implant a terrabyte in your brain.

Your sweetie says communication is important in a marriage...so you buy another computer and network them together so that you can IM each other anytime.

As your car crashes through the guardrail on a mountain road, your first instinct is to search for the "back" button.

All of your friends have an @ in their names.

You start using smileys in your snail mail

You bring a bag lunch to the computer.

You have withdrawals if you are away from the computer for more than a few hours.

You take a speed reading course to keep up with the scrolling.

You type faster than you think.

You double click your TV remote.

You can now type over 70 WPM.

You check your e-mail and forget you have real mail.

You go into withdrawals during dinner.

You rank your friends by the amount of bandwith they have.

You have "Googled" all your friends to try to find out anything interesteing that they are not telling you and you can use against them later.

You message someone via IM when they are less than 20 feet away.

The sound of the keys clicking turns you on.

You have more browsers than friends in the real world.

You actually say I-M-O and A-T-M to real friends rather than 'in my opinion' and 'at the moment'. And they give you strange looks.

You run four chat programs all at once... Yahoo Messenger, ICQ, AIM and MSN

You sign off and your screen says you were on for 3 days and 45 minutes.

You purchase a vanity car license plate with your screen name on it.

You say "he he he he" or "heh heh heh" instead of laughing.

You talk on the phone with the same person you are sending an instant message to.

You get up in the morning and go online before getting your coffee.

Your teacher or boss recommends a drug test for the blood shot eyes.

The letters have come off your keyboard from excessive use.

You order pizza online - because you can't be bothered to call.

You say "SCROLL UP" when someone asks what it was you said.

You look at an annoying person off line and wish that you had your ignore button handy.

You enter a room and get greeted by 25 people with {{{hugs}}} and ** kisses**.

You're on the phone and say BRB.

The last movie you've seen was on your Quicktime player.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to the internet.

I'M BAAAACCCKKKKKK!!

Hey Readers! Hope you all missed me!:P Sorry I havn't written anything in the past few days, but my phone lines were dead. Since I don't have DSL, naturally I wasn't able to be online. Man, talk about internet withdrawl!! I didn't think I'd make it past Saturday night, but I found stuff to keep me occupied. I read just about every book I own, and worked on a model. Well, now I know I can survived being stranded on a deserted island!! :P

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have quite a pleasant (?) predicament. One of my lady friends online has a crush on me. Her name is April and she lives in West VA too. I have so find some way to let her down easy, because the feeling isn't mutual. Don't get me wrong, she's a really nice person, but I have a few misgivings about her feelings. First off, she just got divorced from a guy that beat her, and second, she was pregnant with twins, but had a miscarriage. I dunno if she really likes me or is just on the rebound. Anyway, we shall see....

THE ONLY TIME IVE REALLY REALLY WANTED TO KILL SOMEONE.....

Was back in 7th Grade. I had this teacher, Mrs. Bailey, who was a total BITCH! Anyway, I was out of school for a couple days because I was sick. We were going on a field trip the day I got back, and I was in no mood for being messed with, having had a bad kidney infection. So here I am dressed in jeans and a sweat shirt, and everyone else is dressed up. So..she rips into me, insulting my clothes. So I ripped into her. I said " This is the only type of stuff I can afford, we aren't rich ya know." She was highly unimpressed, and I ended up getting in trouble. I felt so embarrassed, being insulted in front of the whole school.

CONGRATULATIONS TO 2 OF MY FRIENDS!!

Tomorrow, Kat, my best friend in the whole world, and her BF Keith, also a friend of mine, will be taking the plunge into that institution known as Marriage. I am sooo happy for them! If not for a lack of money, right now instead of writing this, I'd be on my way to Iowa to attend the wedding. A toast to you 2 on a happy life together!

FINALLY, AN ENDING

Today, a jury in California sentenced Scott Peterson to death for the murder of his wife Laci and their unborn son. As a respector of all women, I can't for the life of me understand why a man could do something like that to a woman. He could have divorced her, but I guess that was too easy for him. Even though he wa sentanced to death, he'll probably never see the death chamber, since there are over 600 people on Death Row in California. Hopefully, he'll be haunted by this crime the rest of his life.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY WOMEN LIKE TO SHOP!!

Yesterday I went with my Mom and Sister Julie to go Christmas shopping. I'm not much of a shopper, so I don't understand the thrill some women get from shopping. The only thrill I get from it is going out to eat:P Anyway...got my Christmas shopping done!!

I MISS HOCKEY!

I'm a big hockey fan, and this lockout is really getting on my nerves! I know the Caps have been a really bad team the past few years, but I still miss em! I hope that the owners and players can reach a new labor agreement really quick!

A QUICK SITE REVIEW

While surfing last night, I came across a very interesting and funny site. I Hate Pat Robertson Is a much needed site slamming Pat Roberstson, Jerry Fallwell, and the rest of the Religious Right. While I am a Christian, I do not agree with the way these people have infiltrated their way into the workings of our Government.

A REDEDICATION

Lord, I know I've strayed from you the past 4 years, ever since Mom got hurt. Please forgive me. Lord, please help me forgive all those people that have wronged me, because I think that's what is keeping me from experiencing all that you have for me. Please show me what you want me to do in and with my Life. Please give me the patience to wait on the woman you've made for me, and give me the strenght to overcome my lonliness. Please help me be a better son, brother, uncle and friend. I know that the key to happiness is letting you control all facets of my life.

IN MEMORIAUM

Here's to all the Sailors, Soldiers, and Marines who died during the attack on Pearl Harbor 63 years ago. Expecially the over 1600 men who died abord the battleships USS Arizona and USS Oklahoma. Also, thank you to all our service people involved in the Iraq War.

MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST

This being the Christmas Season, here are some of the things I'd like:


The Battlestar Galactica DVD Box Set

Any kind of ship or airplane model

Books, history or other wise

Clothes

A better digital camera


and that old standby...Money

HISTORY

For those of you who know me, this doesn't come as a surprise, but I love history. It has been a hobby of mine since I was a kid, maybe 9 0r 10. that, combined with my love of reading, had made me a veritible fountain of information. Ask me any thing about US history, wars, or ships, and I can probably give you an answer. I guess I like history because it's interesting to learn and know about the people and events that happened in the early part of your life and before you were born.

SMOKING CAN BE HAZARDOUS TO YOUR HEALTH IN MORE WAYS THEN ONE!

Today, My Mom almost wrecked her car because of smoking. While we were going to the store, she dropped her cigarrette, went to look for it, and ran the car into a fence. Luckily the only thing hurt was the passenger side mirror, but it could have been worse.....

WHAT A WASTE OF TALENT!

I believe Ricky Williams must be a total nutcase! How could someone just give up a career as one of the NFL's best running backs to leave for a life of pot smoking, learning how to be a holistic healer, and just go around the world? Sheesh......

AN EMBARRASSING EPISODE FROM MY CHILDHOOD!

When I was a kid, I was really afraid of the dark. One day, when I was in first grade, I had to go to the bathroom. While I was in there, the Electricity went out, and so did the lights! Sooooo, I freaked out, Started screaming, and got the hell outta that dark bathroom. Only problem was, my pants were still down. How embarrassing! Some of my classmates who were there were still ribbing me about it in high school. Oh well....

MY STRUGGLES WITH FAITH

Over the past 4 years, I have been engaged in a struggle with my faith. I know God has his reasons for everything, but I still don't have any idea why he would allow my Mom to get hurt. Mom did nothing to deserve what happened to her. She's handling it well, but as for me....I'm not handling it so well. I can't go to sleep without crying, and it just kills me seeing her struggle having to do things with just one hand. Lord, I'm not asking for sympathy, I just want to know why!

HELLO TO EVERYONE READING THIS ON BLOGEXPLOSION

Hi to everyone who has read this on Blogexplosion! For those of you who don't know what that is, Blogexplosion is a service that lets you surf other people's blogs. I've read quite a few interesting ones!

HOLIDAY TIME

I love this time of the year! Holidays get me in a good mood, and I love being able to see my family. The only things that botehr me are the shopping, eating too much, and the fact the the fun goes by way too fast because Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years' are too close together.

A TALE OF 2 FRIENDS, OR "SUCH IS LIFE"

The past week has been a mixed bag or emotions for 2 of my friends, who will remain unnamed to protect their privacy. One found out a couple days ago that she's pregnant, the other was 5 months pregnant and expecting twins and had a miscarriage. Joy and Sadness, just goes to prove the point that there are equal and opposite forces at play in life.

A NEW FRIEND

I have met a new friend in my chat experience. Her name is Kat Williams. She is a truly nice person, and I'm glad that she's my friend. We talk all the time, and even as we speak, I'm getting ready to get offline, because she's supposed to call me in a few minutes. She has told me that apart from her boyfriend, that I am her best friend! Thank you Lord for putting such a wonderful person in my life!!:)

AND EVERYONE WONDERS WHY I'M SHY

As many of you know, I'm very shy. Most of it is because of having to put up with people making fun of me because of my weight. The worst putdown I ever had to endure happened when I was 10 or 12. A friend of my Mom's had came to visit us, and brought her Daughter In Law with her. I had never met this girl before, the Daughter In Law. Instead of saying "Hi". "Hello", or "Fuck You", she said "Damn you're fat and ugly like my husband was when he was your age." My God, you just don't go around saying stuff like that to kids. From then on, I have tried to keep away from people as much as possible. I try, but I still get flashbacks to that moment.

THANKSGIVING

Thanksgiving at my house went pretty good!! Ate too much as usual though. It's nice being able to have some of the family around. In addition to Mom, Dad, and Myself, Julie, Leah, and Crystal were here too. Well, excuse me while I get dessert!

MY FAVORITE SONG

My favorite song of all time is The Chain by Fleetwood Mac. I like it because the music is so powerful. Expecially the Bass part in the middle and Lindsay Buckingham's killer guitar solo towards the end. When I saw them in concert in 1987, my ears were nearly blown off by that song!

THE BEST ADVICE GIVEN BY A TV CHARACTER

"We might as well live for today, there might not be many more"


Lt. Starbuck, Battlestar Galactica

A BLAST FROM THE PAST!!

Here's the only pic of me and my sisters altogether that I've ever seen. Julie's on the right, Lori's on the left, and I wonder who that is is the middle?

SOME THINGS I'M THANKFUL FOR!!

As we get ready for the Thanksgiving season, I sat down to think about what I'm thankful for. Here's some of the things I've come up with:


1: My Family, even though we don't get along all the time and sometimes fight like idiots.

2: My Friends. Although I don't have that many of them, I love em all. Each of them brings
something wonderful and different into my life.

3: My Health. Thank you Lord, I've come a long way from that sick little baby I was.

4: My Church.

5: The chance to live in a free Country.

6: A nice home.

And a lot more things...

Here's My Mom and Dad 

SPORTS HAS BEEN SET BACK INTO THE STONE AGE!

After watching scenes from last night's Detriot Pistons-Indiana Pacers NBA game, I think Sports has reached its low point. If you havn't heard about it, the game was called with 45 seconds to go because after a scuffle between 2 players, the crowd started throwing things, and you had players jumping into the stands going after fans, and fans jumping on the court going after players. As a big sports fan myself, I find it totally disgusting. Just because you have a ticket to a game doesn't mean you have the right to act like a total asshole. As for the players, I don't blame them for what they did. If someone was throwing Beer and food on me, I'd be seeing red myself.

EXILED!!

Well, today my fellow CC1ers and I have been exiled from our beloved room! Some stupid idiot has flooded the room with bots (automated chatters) and is packing the room, so no one can get in. We are taking refuge in CC5, but it feels so....strange and unclean being in a different room.

WHAT I WANT IN A WOMAN

Here are some of the things I'm looking for in my search for a significant other:


1: Looks don't matter.

2: Someone who can accept me despite my weight and looks.

3: Someone who can stand my little quirks.

4: Religion is not a requirement, but a Christian would be nice.

5: Likes getting out and hanging with other friends

6: Also, likes having quiet time together.

7: Will stick with me through thick and thin.

If you are interested, please submit your application :P

SO WHAT HAVE I LEARNED THIS WEEK?

Here are a few things I've learned this week:


1: When in doubt, go to God and ask.

2: When in doubt about telling someone that you've been in love with them for 4 years, and
they've just broken up with their BF, Either wait a few weeks or don't.

3: When someone pms you and says theyre someone, verify it.

4: Thank God that you have such great friends, and let em know it.

ANOTHER MEMORY FROM MY CHILDHOOD

During my years in elementary school, I had the privilage(?) to be a classmate of a guy named Tony Mills. The kid was a complete nutcase. He would be right at home with the terrorists these days. He had no respect for anything or anyone. One day, he attacked a teacher with a pair of scissors, and one he sent me to the dr. by spraying something in my eyes. Needless to say, since he was a nutcase and I was the school outacast, we kinda became pretty good friends. I havn't seen him since 6th grade. Last I heard, 20 some years ago, he was shipped to a military school. Lord help them!

ANOTHER FUNNY SAYING

Here's another funny saying I came across in CC1 Land today:


Have you ever felt like a fire hydrant and your friends were dogs with no where to go?

HOUSE CLEANING

Am I the only guy that likes to do housework? I used to really hate doing it, but after my Mom got hurt, and I had a lotta more resposibilities thrust upon me, I don't really mind. Mom is a neat freak, I must've inherited it from her:P

A REVALATION OR '" GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER

Last night as I was praying and asking God "Lord, what can I do to get my life back on track and get it to be the way YOU want it to be?" And then it all came to me. Call me a nutcase, but here's what he said In my words: First off, trust me, I know what's best for you, don't worry. Second, like yourself. I love ya more then anything. If you love yourself, then people will sense that and love you too. Don't worry about your weight or looks, if people judge you by that, then you don't need them in your life. Don't try to be something you aren't. Be yourself, and everything will fall in place. And don't let that stuff that happened to your Mom or what happened to you in school get you down. You may not know it or think it, but all this stuff has made you stronger. As for women, he said don't worry about that either. I've got someone for ya, and I am going to reveal her to you very soon. Believe me I am not crazy! I'm so glad that God has been listening to my prayers.

You Know You're Addicted To CSI When:

You know the biographies of ALL the personnel from the CSI website.

You never work (or go out) Thursday nites because you'll miss CSI (although you tape it anyway).

You can't sleep knowing that something exciting is going to happen on the next episode

Your friend asks you about the episode with "the sparkling room thingie," and you don't even have to think about it before informing them they're thinking of Scooba Doobie-Do.

Your puppy is called VEGAS as a compromise, because none of your kids could stop arguing over whether it was gonna be called Grissom, Warrick, Greggo or Nicky......

You start knocking on walls in hope of finding a dead body between them

You walk around with a Mag-lite

You change your lighting to UV lighting, just to see those stains in your carpet

You dust for prints in your knife drawer

You wrap your house with yellow crime-scene tape

You wear latex gloves while at home

You suddenly study chemistry to understand more about those chemical reactions.

You learn Photoshop you can make wallpapers out of the pics you have

You've changed your quote from "Smile at the world, and the world will smile back" to "Concentrate on what cannot lie... The evidence"

When you were a kid, you wanted to be an astronaut. Now you want to be a CSI

When you are the leader of a group, you think, "What kind of a leader should I be? Gris Style or Horatio?"

You stare at Grissom's eyeglasses and Horatio's shades, then search for the exact pair (or at least close to it!)

You plan on living in Las Vegas or Miami

Your choice of car? The one like Horatio has.

You have a jacket, with the word "Forencics" written on the back

You'd even settle for a shirt with the same word

You read HAMLET, cause it was mentioned that HORATIO came from the name of Hamlet's best bud, Horatio

You got arrested when found crossing the yellow tape.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to CSI.

YOU KNOW YOU'RE ADDICTED TO STAR WARS WHEN

You can recite *all* the dialogue from the trilogy.

You watch the entire trilogy at least once a month.

You wonder why the SW theme never makes it into those "clasical collections."

Any time you pick up a walkie-talkie or two-way radio, the first thing you say is "TK-421, why aren't you at your post?"

Whenever you went anywhere outside with your friends, you always walked single file, to hide your numbers.

You've written several letters to the President recommending that he dissolve the council, put power in the hands of the regional governors, and let fear keep the local systems in line.

In college, after several hours of poker, you got thrown our of the game for suggesting, "How about some sabacc?"

When trying unsuccessfully to snare that last Cheerio floating in your cereal bowl, you remarked, "the Force is strong with this one."

On Halloween, you would never dress as: Luke, Han Solo, Leia, Vader, Chewie, Threepio, Artoo

However, you would dress as: Wedge, Porkins, Crix Madine, that spider droid from Jabba's palace that fat dancer from Jabba's palace, Sy Snootles, the Cantina bartender. The monster in the trash compactor, Boba Fett, An Imperial probe droid

You've been pulled over by a policeman, and when asked to see your driver's license you replied, "You don't need to see my identification."

And when he asks about your two friends in the back "They're for sale, if you want them."

You have physically threatened anyone who referred to "Hans Solo" or "Dark Vader", confused Star Wars with Star Trek, or spellied Wookiee with only one "e."

You have held up an onion ring and said, "Look sir...droids!"

You've referred to Wedge Antilles or Boba Fett as "The Man."

You've bought a white Isuzu Trooper, strictly because of the name.

While sitting on the couch with your girlfriend, she comments about being cold. So, naturally, you slice open the side of the cushion and stuff her in.

You insist on spelling Pizza Hut "Pizza Hutt."

You dropped your religion and now live the way Yoda taught you.

You recorded all the new Star Wars comercials.

You frequently experience insomnia and, to counter this, begin counting nerfs.

You answer the phone "Die wanna wanga?"

Whenever you buy a new appliance, you make sure to get one that speaks Bacchi.

You call your aunt and uncle Aunt Beru and Uncle Owen.

Whenever you catch sight of cars behind yours, you say "Fighters, coming in, point three five."

Someone else in your car says "What about that tower?"

You respond, "You worry about those fighters, I'll worry about the tower", and moments later your car slams into the water tower the passenger was referring to.

When a cop catches you speeding, you floor it, saying "I've outrun Imperial starships, and not the local bulk cruisers..."

When someone apologizes to you, you choke him and tell him that you accept his apology.

You ride your motorbike through the forest at top speed, and survive after throwing yourself off just before it hits a tree.

You've 'wielded' a flashlight and made humming sounds.

You wave your hand purposefully and 'use the force' to open and close automatic doors or elevator doors.

You go over to a friends, go to his refrigerator, and crawl in throwing food and stuff over your shoulder and grunting.

You walk into an optometrist's office and shout: You will PAY for your lack of vision!

You have a Yoda figurine replacing the brand symbol on the hood of your car.

When accelerating your car to enter the freeway, you tell your passengers to strap in and prepare for light speed.

Your significant other dumps you because everytime she/he says, "I love you" you always respond, "I know."

You quote Yoda to defend your political beliefs.

You have so many SW Trilogy GIF's, JPG's, MIDI's, AVI's, WAV's, MPG's, icons and text files that you're rapidly running out of disk space and have to buy a bigger hard drive just to hold them all.

You have so many SW posters that you can't see your ceiling or floor, either.

You have so many SW toys that you can't see your SW posters anyway.

When leaving a restaurant, you can't resist signing Boba Fett or Darth Vader in the guestbook.

You went through a state of depression when Chewie died.

You look at "big hairy carpets" with more respect than before.

You speak Rodian.

You punch out trekkies who say "Death star my ass, I'd like to see those losers take out DS9."

With a blue-tinted plastic tube, a flashlight, two hours of a Saturday night, and 4 rolls of blue electrical tape, you finally complete your own working "Light-saber"

You listen for Obi-Wan while attempting to parallel park

1Your father asks you how fast your car is, and you reply, "Fast enough for you, old man!"

You could have sworn you saw bantha tracks during your trip to the grand canyon.

Every time somebody sneezes, you say, "May the force be with you."

The cinnamon buns in your hair start to grow mold.

You call your friend who is a midget Wicket.

You refer to money as credits without trying to.

You respond to any mention of the legality of something with "I will make it legal."

You start reliving the speeder bike chase on your motorbike.

Someone tells you your car is old and beat-up, you reply "She'll do .5 past light speed..."

You refer to getting off the freeway as coming out of hyperspace.

You are POSITIVE you are force-sensitive and only lack the proper training.

Someone says they will try to do something you automatically respond "Do or do not. There is no try."

By intense study you have actually figured out the location of every gun implacement on a star destroyer.

Your house robe is brown and extra large.

You type in the terms for a search engine as if entering coordinates, then shout "Punch it, Chewie!" as you click on search.

You argue about whether Star Wars is space fantasy or space opera.

You're out looking for a Wookie for your school's wrestling team.

You nickname your car the Millennium Falcon.

The last time a cute guy tried to hug you, your hands were dirty.

When your mom asks you to clean your room, you say "Leave that to me."

Your friends share recipes for cooking Ewok.

You have a long braid in you hair like Obi-Wan in E1.

You call your boss/teacher "Master"

You went to the nearest recruiting center and asked to be assigned to the 121st TIE squadren

When asked if you want to be buried or creamated you say "I'll just vanish like the rest of the Jedi"

You have a bad feeling about everything.

While partying with friends, you do your Darth Vader impression.

You try to get your car up to .5 beyond lightspeed, in a parking lot.

You call your girlfriend, "your Highness."

You keep calling your boyfriend, "Luke," "Han," or "Lando" by mistake.

You believe John Williams is the best composer ever (which, of course, he is!), and George Lucas is a god (which, too, is pretty much true!)

While listening to the soundtrack without knowing the name of the song you are listening to, you know exactly what's happening while it's playing.

In foreign language class, you tell the teacher, "Hey! If I'm fluent in over six million forms of communication, then how come I'm getting such a bad grade in this class?"

When your friends confide in you and tell you their deepest, darkest secrets, you say, "You are far too trusting."

When your dad says, "I am your father," you begin to scream uncontrollably and shout, "NOOOO! It's not true!" at the top of your lungs.

You have ever thought the world would be a better place if it were like the Rebel Alliance/New Republic.

You now want to become an astronaut to see if there really is a Lando system.

Obiwan Kenobi and Yoda come to you in your dreams and give you advice about tough situations you're dealing with.

Yoda's little sayings have had a profound impact on your life, and you abide by them religiously.

You've created lyrics to the songs in Star Wars.

Instead of saving for college, you save up for Star Wars stuff you plan to buy.

Anyone who doesn't like Star Wars you proclaim is an Imperial.

When you are ticked off at somebody, you send bounty hunters all over the place to find them and then you encase him in carbonite for a new wall decoration.

When your alarm clock goes off in the morning, your reply is, "Unexpected this is... and unfortunate!"

When riding your bike, you look behind you and accelerate wildly by pressing down on the petal with your right toe.

You've kept the "good" action figures stored separately from the "bad" ones.

As a child, whenever you had broken something, your response was always, "It must've had a self-destruct mechanism. I didn't hit it that hard."

You've refused to enter a cave/cavern/tunnel without a handgun and a large stick.

When you waited for a friend to catch up with you, you told him to hurry up or he'd be a permanent resident.

You've ever found yourself in a chat room, training Jedi.

You've ever told your younger brother at the dinner table, "Use the fork, Luke."

You've ever roped off your Star Wars Action Figure collection, claiming it to be an independent nation.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Star Wars.

You Know You're Addicted to Star Trek When

Your favorite drink: Tea, earl grey, hot

You can quote the name of every single episode just by watching the first 10 seconds of the introductory clip

You own 13 Star Trek Technical Manuals and Blue Print Schematics of all Starship but you no longer need them

When seeing a doctor, you're afraid of getting a shot and ask for a hypospray instead

Your electronic project: Positronic brain

You have 4 TVs at home and each of them are playing TOS, TNG, DS9 and VOY respectively 24 hours a day non-stop

You remembered the lock up code that Data uses on the Enterprise's Main Bridge before beaming down to meet Dr. Soong and Lore

You've learned playing the song "The Inner Light" with a penny whistle

After broken your neighbour's window, instead of just running away, you try to use the "Picard Maneuver" to escape

You're hosting a conference, your response to any suggestions: Make it so

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Star Trek.

MY SENTIMENTS EXACTLY!

This evening my friend Cathy has an away message on her yahoo messenger that Is really true.


THANK GOD FOR UNANSWERED PRAYERS, WHEN WHAT YOU PRAYED FOR IS NOT WHAT HE WANTS FOR YOU.

MY CC1 FRIENDS

After 4 years of being online, and nearly that long being a denizen of Yahoo Christian Chat 1, I've met many people there, and a lot of them I consider close friends. Here are some of them, and my thoughts about them:


Fran-Wonderful lady, love ya!

Cathy-One of the best people, still (hopefully?) One of my closest friends, though I've caused
her way too much grief sometime.

Lil, Jewels, and Breezey-The classy ladies of the room.

Deb/DK-An online Aunt figure to me.

Jilly-The epitome of coolness, brings fun to the group

Night/Happy/Julie-Nice...but SCARY!!!

Cali-Another classy lady, and another good friend.

Damian-He's the Boss.

Melissia-My "adopted little sister" and probably my closests friend.

Kat Williams-A newcomer, but cool.


And there are many more---you all know who you are.

MY PLEA TO GOD

Dear Lord, please help me . Please help me get over all the stuff that I've been through in my life. My lonliness, Mom's injury, and my being tortured in school have really brought me down, and kept me from being the person I can be. Im not being ungreatful for the things you've done for me, but these things that I've mentioned are the most important things that I need your help with. The most important thing of those, Lord, is please guide me to that special woman you've made for me. My lonliness is totally intolerable. Also Lord, please send me more friends. Anyway, I leave all this in your hands.

SOME FUNNY QUOTES

By Dave Barry

1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
2. If you had to identify, in one word, the reason why the human race has not achieved, and never will achieve, its full potential, that word would be “meetings.”
3. There is a very fine line between “hobby” and “mental illness.”
4. People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them.
5. And when God, who created the entire universe with all of its glories, decides to deliver a message to humanity, he WILL NOT use, as his messenger, a person on cable TV with a bad hairstyle.
6. You should not confuse your career with your life.
7. No matter what happens, somebody will find a way to take it too seriously.
8. When trouble arises and things look bad, there is always one individual who perceives a solution and is willing to take command. Very often, that individual is crazy.
9. Nobody cares if you can’t dance well. Just get up and dance.
10. Never lick a steak knife.
11. Take out the fortune before you eat the cookie.
12. The most powerful force in the universe is gossip.
13. You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.
14. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests that you think she’s pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging from her at that moment.
15. There comes a time when you should stop expecting other people to make a big deal about your birthday. That time is age eleven.
16. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender, religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside, we ALL believe that we are above average drivers.
17. The main accomplishment of almost all organized protests is to annoy people who are not in them.
18. A person who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice person.
19. Your friends will love you anyway.
20. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic.

A FEW QUESTIONS I'D LIKE TO ASK GOD

God, I know we're not supposed to question your motives, but there are a few things I'd really like to ask you:


1: Why did you let me be born with all my birth defects? Because of them, I don't think I'll
ever be able to have kids or be intimate with a woman.


2: Why did you make me so fat and unattractive? Because of that, I have been picked on all my
life, and probably will never find a GF or Wife, because we all know that all women care
about are looks.

3: Why did you not help me when I was being tortured in school? Because of that, I am afraid
of being around people and have zero self esteem.


4: Why did you let Mom get hurt? It has served no purpose except nearly drive me to a
nervous breakdown, because I just can't handle it.



Again, I know that we aren't supposed to question your motives but I'd really like to know.

THE EVILS OR POLITICS.

I am soooo glad that this stupid election is over!!! I'm not much of a political fan, so I can live with Bush winning. I think George Washington was right when he told the country in his Farwell Address that Political Parties were not in the Country's best interest. The parties in Congress spend more time arguing with each other then actually doing "The People's Business" I know that everyone has their own ideas and opinions, but gimme a break!

YAY!!! We're Saved!

On Friday, we got some really good news here! My Mom got a letter from Workers' Comp., and they're settling her claim. She'll be getting $57,000 , well actualy close to 40 after the lawyer gets his share. I know it isn't no where damn near what she deserves after all the shit she's been through, but it's better then nothing, and we really need the money!

NOTE TO A FRIEND

Cathy:

I am soooo sad that your relationship with Royce has ended. You 2 were together for almost 3 years, and it has taken the CC1 community by SHOCK. I can only imagine the pain you're going through. Please , take care of yourself, and don't even think of doing anything stupid. You are one of my closest friends in the whole world, and I care about you.


Billy

BOSTON, MEET THE EXORCIST

The Curse is over! The Boston Redsox have ended 86 years of futility by winning the Word Series. Bill Buckner, sleep well tonight!

MY TRIP TO THE DENTIST

A couple of days late, but on Monday I had a dentist appointment. No cavities, but of course, that damn crown on my front tooth had to be recememted. The dentist said the next timeit comes off, Im gonna need to have a bridge made. For those of you who don't know what that is, its when theu cut down the teeth on each side of it, and make a crown that goes over all 3 teeth. GRRRRRR!

Adventures In Parenting , Or "Sheesh"

Today in Church, we learned that our pastor and his wife are expecting....their SECOND set of twins! Dan and Holly already have 4 kids. Dang! I don't know if I could handle 1 kid, never mind 6!

MY "THEME SONG"

Ya know, if my life had a theme song, I have 2 great canditates for it. The first one would be Place In This World by Michael W. Smith, because I'm still wondering what I"m here in this life for. The second would be When Will I Be Loved by Linda Ronstadt, for obvious reasons:P

Yuck!

I hate days like this! Dark, rainy, and nasty. It seems to drain the energy from me. I hope the sun comes out soon!

CURSE? WHAT CURSE?

I am soooo happy to see the Red Sox beat the Yankees in the American League Championship Series! I'm normally an Orioles fan, but I'm a bigger Yankee hater!!

THAT DANG TOOTH!

My front tooth has been nothing but trouble for the past 20 years. First, when I was a kid, a fell down, hit my mouth on the kitchen stove, and broke it in half. Next, it got an abcess in it. Having it drilled was the most painful experience of my life, because it wasn't numbed. Sooo, afte havung it chipped off and fixed I don't know how many times, I got a crown put on it. Still more trouble! I don't know how many times it's came off, because there's not enough tooth left to hold it on. Even as a write this, it's hanging by a thread, about ready to come off again. SHEESH!

THE FIRST REAL FRIEND I EVER HAD

You know, it's kind of sad when it takes you until you're 30 to find the first real friend in your life. Sure I had acquatainces, but I never really felt comfortable talking to them. That all chanced in the Spring of 2oo1, while online, I met Cathy Mays. She is one of the few good people left in this world. I remeber all those late conversations we had verly fondly. These days, I think our friendship is a bit strained because of a mistake I made, which I won't elaborate about and we don't talk as much as we used to. Someday, I hope I can win her trust back totally, and that we can be great friends once again.

AHHH THE SOUND OF SILENCE!

This week was nice and quiet! My Aunt got the casts of her legs and was able to go home, so I didn't have to hear anymore of her complaining. And since Crystal's doing ok, the anxiety level has also taken a nosedive. I hope I have many more weeks like this!

SOMETHING TO BE PROUD ABOUT!

Today, I tried on a new pair of jeans and I DIDN'T have any trouble getting then buttoned and zipped! I am soooo proud of myself for losing weight! I hope I can keep it up!!!!!!

A CLOSE CALL

My family had a close call this week. My niece Crystal Had to be admitted to the hospital because she had a seizure, and her Sugar level was sky high. Turned out, she has Diabetes. Evan though that's bad, it's a relief knowing what was wrong.

I'M ON GOOGLE!

I made it on Google! If you do a search for my name, the first 3 entries deal with this blog! Kinda cool huh?

EMAIL ETTIQUITTE

As you know, I use email a lot. Call me anal if you must, but some people just have bad email habits. Here's some things I suggest.


1: Treat the writing of a personal email as your would writing a letter. Check your
spelling and punctuation, and DO NOT USE CHAT ABBREVIATIONS!

2: If sending an attachment,let the recipient know it's coming. Attachments are the main
tool hackers use to plant viruses and such.


3: When emailing a message to more than 1 person, use the Blind Carbon Copy setting on
your email program, so that people can't see other people's addresses.


4: Instead of forwarding, if at all possible, cut and paste the pertinent information onto a new
email, so that the reader doesn't have to look through lots of forwards to get to it.



These suggestions should make your email experience much better!

THE BEST GIFT I EVER RECEIVED

When I was 8 or 9 years old, and I was starting to get interested in History, my Aunt gave me a book about the presidents. Even though it had been printed in 1959, I loved that book. I never went anywhere without it, and finally, it just fell apart, it had been read to death. After spending 20 years looking for a replacement, I finally found an updated version of it, and this one's being taken care of:P What a gift!

GUEST MAP

I've added another feature to my blog, it's called a guest map. It's located between the archives section and the links sections on here. Click on it, follow the instructions, and place a pin where you live!

SOME TALES FROM MY TIME IN THE BOY SCOUTS

Yes, I was a Boy scout back when I was a kid. There are 2 trips we went on that I just can't help remembering. The first one, we were supposed to go on a skiing trip to some place in Va. Even though I was sick and my throat was killing me, I went, because my Dad was a leader in the Troop. BAD IDEA! We got there, got out gear out of the cars, and started hiking towards the cabin we were going to stay in. Man it was cold as hell out! Well, after a couple hours of walking, someone stopped looked at the map and said "Humm, something looks wrong here." Turned out that the map was in error, and that what was supposed to be a 3 mile hike was instead a 23 mile hike! Needless to say, after the leadership huddled together and decided to go back home, because it was too late at night to hike that far, I was the first one to start heading back. But, there were a few of the boys who wanted to keep on going, but they were told no. That was the closest thing to a mutiny that I have ever seen. When I got home, I slept for 2 days. Our next adventure started about a year later. We were going to visit the training center for the Federal Emegency Preparedness Agency (FEMA). This time we didn't have to hike, but this time, the weather was a problem. It was obscenely cold, and the fireplace in the cabin we were in didn't put out enough heat......Now comes the neat part. The next night, we stayed in a gym, and slept along an indoor jogging track. There was also an indoor pool there. I had been told that it was there beforehand, but being 12 yrs old, didn't believe in it. While others had their swim suits, here I am swimming in my longjohns! Also, they had a 24 hr cafeteria there, which we made liberal use of. Now that is one trip I'll never forget!

A Tale From My Childhood---OUCH!!!

One evening when I was 8 or 9, my Dad had to go out on a job, and my Mom went with him. That left my sister Lori in charge of me. She was doing her homework in her room, and I was in the livingroom watching TV. Sometime later, I fell asleep on the couch. I woke up hungry and went into her room to ask her to fix me something. I didn't get too far as----BONK!!! something hit me on the head! I dunno how she did it, but Lori had balanced a very large stereo speaker on top of her door, and the result was a trip to the ER and 30 stiches to close up a nasty looking gash on the top of my head, and I had the mother of all headaches! To this day, I still have a bump on my head where the stitches were, and it feels funny to touch. OUCH!!!

WHERE'S THE JUSTICE?!

Ya know, it really pisses me off that while my Mom has to struggle with the use of 1 hand, the lady that caused her accident got off without even a slap on the wrist! It was her greed that caused my Mom to get hurt. Because of American Woodmark's desire to put profits ahead of people's safety, all safety rules were thrown down the toilet. Her boss said that it would be Ok to make an adjustment on her machine involving moving parts WHILE the thing was still moving. Mom had to to what the boss said, and the rest, as they say, is history. So because of that, my Mom will never have the use of her hand again, while that bitch Hellen Thompson gets off scott free, and can enjoy a normal life. Sheer lunacy!

HOMESICK

Even though I've lived in West Va. for 12 years, I don't consider it my home, just a temporary relocation. I miss Fairfax, VA soooo much. I was born, raised, and spent the first 21 years of my life there. The one biggest thing I miss is the library. I used to go there all the time and get armloads of books. You can't find the kind of books I like at the Moorefield library. In fact, the last time I went there, all the books I looked at were older then I was:P Also, to get a good book, ya gotta shlep all the way to Cumberland, MD, because the mall there has the closest book store. And since my favorite hobby shop around here closed a couple weeks ago, I have to go down to Winchester to bye models. The newspapers here really stink! Gimme a good Washington Post or USA Today anytime! Beleive me, Moorefield does have a few good qualities to it. The people here are nice, and my church is great. Mom says she thinks God lead us here so that I could start going to church. But on the other hand, I am just not a country person! I don't like constant silence. Down home, we lived next to a highway. If I ever get married and save up a few bucks, I will move back there!

I AM NO BABYSITTER!

IWell, things are gettin really sucky around here! Now not only do I have to help my Mom out, but now since My aunt fell and broke both of her feet, Im really busy. Get this, get that, It never ends! Don't get me wrong, I'm a helpful person, but man, I barely have enough time for myself anymore! My personal to do list is really getting backed up. Anyway, that's life for ya!

SOMETHING THAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF!

The one thing that I really hate in my chat experience is being PMd by Indian/Pakastani ministers and "poor" Africans. They usually work in the same fashion. First they'll ask for your ASL, I always tell em to check my profile for all my vital information. Next, they'll ask if you're a Christian and what kinda church you go to. Next, they'll say that they need money to run their ministry, that they're orphans, they need someone to invite them to the US, or some other Bullshit. That's when I ignore them! Tell me, if they're so poor, HOW THE HELL CAN THEY AFFORD TO BE ONLINE? GRRRRRRRR

YES THIS IS MINE!!!
THE PRIDE OF MY COLLECTION

Internet Dating

So, what's your opinion on internet dating? I know most of you older types don't think it's a good idea, because you think, "How can you date someone that lives miles away, and that you have never seen in person before?" My opinion is , if done properly, internet dating can be successful. Two of my closest friends, Cathy and Royce, met online, and they currently have a very strong relationship, and I know a few others. Just one warning: Make sure the person you're interested in is legit, or you may be in trouble!

My Family

I havn't said too much about my family besides my Mom. I am the youngest of 3 kids. I have 2 older sisters. Julie who is 44 is the oldest, and Lori who is 40 is the next. Then there's me. My Parents have been married 41 years. They are natives of West Virginia, which is why I live here now. My sisters and I were born and raised in Fairfax, VA. Mom, as you know, is at home because of her hand. Dad is semi-retired and works just 3 days a week. We moved back here to West VA. in 1992, and I'm still kind of in culture shock! All in all, we're just a regualar family.

A RECONCILIATION

I have finally made peace with 2 close friends of mine with whom ive had a strained relationship for the past year and a half or so. I won't name any names to protect them. They are a couple. I fell in love with the female half of the couple, but the feeling wasn't mutual. She started seeing this other guy, who later became a friend of mine as well. I became jealous, and became a general Asshole towards them. Well, after admitting defeat and pleanty of apologies on my part, they have started talking to me again. I'm gonna do whatever it takes to regain their total trust, because I value their friendship so much, and it would be a shame to see that friendship die because of a misunderstanding.

Where Has All The Time Gone?

Today is my Birthday! I turned 33. Man, where has all the time gone? It seems like yesterday I was just a kid!

The Man In The Basement

I truly believe that the house we lived in before we moved to West VA. is haunted. A few months before we moved into it, the son in law of the couple that owned the house hung himself in the basement. The whole 12 years we lived there, all sorts of weird stuff happened. Things coming up missing , things being moved, and as noted in my previous post, there was the tape incident. There were also weird noises during the night, and one night while she was alone there, my Mom saw someone walking down the steps goin to the upstairs. I don't really beleive in Ghosts, but ya never know....

A Strange Experience Or The Case Of The Transformed Music Tape

During the Summer between 7th and 8th Grade, I was going on a trip somewhere, and the day before we left, I recorded a tape to listen to during the ride. Before I went to bed, I listened to it to check and see if it was ok, no prob. The next morning, however was a totally different story. I put the tape in my walkman, expecting to hear my favorite tunes, but..........THERE WAS TOTALLY DIFFERENT STUFF ON IT!!!!! Talk about your mysteries. To this day, I still have no damn idea what happened. I think it was the guy in the basement (subject of a future post) But my Dad thinks I hit the wrong button on the radio. Hummm....

A PIC OF ME!

Here's A pic of me that my Niece Crystal took of me a couple of days ago
ME

Chat Ettiquette

Over my years of being an online chatter, I've had a lotta things done to me that were quite annoying. Therefore, here are some suggestions that will get you into my good graces should you want to chat with me. They are good for everyone.


1: When someone comes online, please wait a few mins before PMing them. Give them time to get settled it.
2: ASl? FORGET IT!!! That's what profiles are for!!
3: Don't ask if someone has a pic or cam. If they want you to know what they look like, they'll let ya know.
4: Please don't ask for money of give a sob story of how you're a poor African or Indian/Pakistani minister.
5: If you're gonna say something, please don't wait 10 minutes after saying hi!

Thank you for your attention!

Some Additions to this Blog

As you can see, I've made a few changes to this Blog. I 've added the chatterbox at the bottom, so please leave me a note. I've also added some links, and will be adding some more later!

School Daze or "Don't cramp my style"

As you all may know, I love to read. I have a specific addiction to history, and military history in particular. I had this one teacher an 8th Grade English Teacher named Mrs. Lesser. Excuse me for the language, but she was a BITCH. We nearly came to blows many times because everytime I'd write a book report, it was about some war or something. Finally she said, "Listen, another war story, and I'm gonna flunk you". So me, being the resourceful type, found the most stupidest book I could find, and wrote a book report that was almost a novel in itself. Ahh...it's always nice to get the last Laugh. :P

Note to a Special Lady

Fran:

Thank you for everything you've done for me. You have been the one constant in the storms I've had to go through the past months. Knowing that you're there for me has been the only thing keeping me from going insane. You've won my heart over, I can only hope to do the same to you!

I AM A MIRACLE

No, I'm not conceited :P I really am a miracle. When my Mom was pregnant with me, her Thyroid went bad, and it caused me to be a really sick little baby. I was born with a lotta birth defects. One of my kidneys had to be removed because it didn't work, and the other one was virtually rebuilt. The rest of my urinary tract was also in a shambles. I can't have kids, because all the equipment associated with procreation is also defective. Sure, I could have an operation to get it fixed, but having to piss through a catheter into a bag for a couple of months while everything heals is not my idea of fun. The dr's said I wouldnt make it past a year, but here I am, a week from turning 33. Hummm....maybe I was wrong thinking God hadn't done anything good for me!

Another Funny Story

This nest story has nothing to do with me, it involves my parents. In 1985, my Mom won a cruise to the Bahamas. To get there, She and my Dad had to fly from Dulles Airport to Miami to catch the cruise ship. Welllll, Dad found out that he was scared to fly, and on the plane, it took every bit of his energy to keep from flipping out. They had a really good time on their cruise, but when it was time to go home, Dad wanted no parts of flying. Since it was Chrismas/New Year's holiday, the only vehicle they could find to rent was a U-Haul truck. So they drove all the way from Fla. back to VA in that. Quite a vacation!

My Biggest Fear

The biggest fear I have in my entire life is that I'm going to die alone, and that there won't be anyone to bury me, and they'll have to throw me in the trash or something. I'm the baby of my family, and since I'm not too sure if I can ever get married, and since I can't have kids, This fear might be justified...I dunn.

My Mom

My Mom has got to be one of the most strongest people I've ever seen. She doesn't complain at all about her injury, and that really amazes me!

My Friend Mel

My closest friend in the world is Melissia Frierson. I met her online a couple years ago, and we have been friends ever since. She's helped me out so many times when I've been down, I've lost count. She's helped me keep my faith when I was about ready to lose it, and just generally been there to listen. Thanks Mel, you're the best!

The Funniest Thing That Ever Happened To Me

I think the funniest thing that ever happened to me happened on my 2nd day of High School. It was the end of the school day, and on my way out, I stopped at the bathroom. When I got done with that, I got totally lost, and by the time I got my bearings, all the buses were gone. Since I didnt know anyone there, and I didn't have any money with me, the only thing I could go was walk. So here I am, walking down a huge highway, and climing over the concrete barriers to get on the right side of the road. It took me a couple hours, but just when I made it into town, My sister finally showed up in her car, and took me to the place where my Mom worked. Needless to say, Mom was not impressed with what I did. I still think about that and laught!

A New Attitude

After going through a rough time the past few days because of my getting upset at my women problems, my Mom's injury, and flashbacks of my getting picked on in school, I have decided to take a new, more productive attitude. I'm not gonna let things get me down, because they are only words, actions, and events, and they can't hurt you. Worrying, grief, and anger are nothing but unproductive emotions that do nothing but hurt the person experiencing them. I have 25 years to make up. This new attitude may make me act like a total ass once in a while, but I think I can control it.

Now...onto the rest of my life....whatever it may bring, I'm ready!

A look back at 1984

Dang, Can't beleive that it's been 20 years since what I consider the best year of my life to be! I consider 1984 to be the best year of my life because I started to grow up, and finally had some semblance of a childhood, because of all the stuff I'd had been through. I started to listen to rock music, much to the chagrin of my parents. I remember staying up all hours of the morning, trying to find songs I liked and taping them on my old boom box. Also, (unfortunately?) I became aware of the existence of girls. There was the 1 girl, by the name of Carolyn Riceman, that particularly caught my eye. I was head over heels in love with her, but alas, the feeling wasn't mutual. I tried every thing to get her to go out with me, but no dice. I think if I'd tried that today, I'd be in jail for stalking:P Sometimes, when I'm laying in bed at night, and I'm feeling down, I close my eyes and take a trip back to those days.

My Friend Jewels

A couple of days ago, I recieved what I think was the best email I've ever recieved. It came from my friend Jewels. She has got to be one of the sweetest people I have ever met! I had emailed her asking advice on how to forgive the lady that caused my Mom's accident. Although she did quote some scripture, she didn't preach to me. He advice was from the heart. She said that I had to forgive, or else it would eat me alive. I have known Jewels now for over 2 years I think. I admire her for her courage in overcoming all the problems she's had in her life. She truly has a strong relationship with God. Jewels, I tip my hat to ya, and thanks for being such a good friend!:)

About Kids

Hey Gang!  Sorry I havn't posted in a while, but my niece has veen staying with us for the last 2 weeks.  Man, she is a handful! Crystal is 12 goin on 40 :P   She's keepin me on my toes, t hat's for sure. All you parent types,  I don't know how ya do it! 

About Religion

I'm a Christian. I've been one for seven years. But what I am not is one of those "So Called" Christians that say that their way is the only way, and all those who disagree are trash. And even though I'm a christian, I'm a Democrat and hate Bush, even though thats also a no-no in Christianity. My Politcal beliefs were formed long before my religious ones. I know I still have a long way to go in my walk with God, but I love it! Even though sometimes I dont realize it, he's helped me through lots of stuff, which I dont wanna talk about.

My Personal Site

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My Personal Site

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Coin Collecting

My Favorite hobby is Coin Collecting. I've been collecting for over 20 years. My first coin, which I still have, was a 1940-D Nickle that my Aunt gave me. So I thought "Man this is cool" and began collecting in earnest. Also at that time, my Mom was working at a Woolco store, and they sold coins there too. I was a frequent customer there, and blew my fair share of bucks. Later, I found a coin shop in Arlington, Va and every Thurday night for 5 years, My Dad and I went to their auction. I remember one night, we spent $250 on coins, which did not impress my Mom ver much:P The worst day of my life was the day that store closed:P These Days,I dont collect much except for the new quarters, beause I dont live near any coin shops, but 3 years ago I made a big purchase. I boought a 1934 series $500 bill at a hobby store in Md., and It was the best $750 I've ever spent! Coin collecting may be an expensive hobby, but I recommend it to everyone. You can learn a lot about history from coins.

About Friends

Ya know, maybe I have been wrong about not having any friends. The past few days, the gang from cc1 (Yahoo Christian Chat Room 1 for all of you that are unfamiliar) have really been supportive of me. There are lots of different types of people that come in. You have the Christians, such As my friends Cathy, Royce, Jewels, Debbie, Lil, and a bunch of other. Then ya have the the Non-Christians, like my friends Damian, Cali, Night, and Robyn. It amazes me how everyone gets along so well. Sometimes, it does get a bit messy, as should be expected with people of such diverse beliefs, but all in all, We all get along very well. People may say "They're just people in a computer chat room" But, They are the best group of friends I've ever had!

A Terible Anniversary

Today is the fourth anniversery of my Mom getting hurt. Even after all those years, it still hurts. That it happened, I got over a long time ago. But why it happend is what gets me. Because of greed, the company that Mom worked for ignored all safety rules. I swear if I ever have a chance to get Hellen Thompson, the bitch who was Mom's supervisor and told her it was ok to stick her hand near a live machine in a dark alley, I will give her such a beat down....

Just a general rant!

Man I am soooo glad this week is over!!! Ya talk about tension! I've come to blows with my Mom about Money a few times this week. It's such a stupid thing to worry about! Somehow we've always made it and probably always will!

Thoughts On Love

Is it just me, or do any of you think it's unusual for a 32 year old guy to have never had a girlfriend or been on a date? Well, folks, that's me! I know that I'm no work of art, but gimme a break, theres gotta be someone out there for me! I'm a nice guy (at least I think I am!) Plus, being shy on my part doesn't help. Maybe someday....

Thoughts On Depression

I know it may sound crazy, but I have been depressed for 25 years or so. It all started with that nightmare called School. I was picked on every day for 12 years about my weight. I never had any friends, so it was quite tough. Now I know you may be saying "Dude, it's been 20 years, get over it", but that is easier said then done. Being picked on tears every bit of self respect and confidence you have to shreds, and makes you feel less then human. It takes every bit of energy I have to be around people, I am so shy. I was almost over that, but then my Mom got hurt. I was totally unprepared for the responsibilities thrust on me. Also, due to the circumstances of her injury, my heart just screams for vengeance against the people she worked with. Maybe someday I'll be able to get over all this stuff and have a normal life.

A bit on the weight battles

Normally I don't like to talk about my weight problem. I've had it most of my life, so beleive you me, it's tough! It's cost me a lotta stuff in my life. Friends, Love, Respect, you name it! I've tried just about every think I can think of, but no success. Sure, I'll lose a few pounds here and there, but its hard to maintain the discipline needed. I know weight is bad for ya, so I'm gonna keep on pluggin at it, no matter what!

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Hello!

Hey there!! Hope everyone's having a good day! Not much to report, as it is 11 in the morning! More later!