A Terible Anniversary

Today is the fourth anniversery of my Mom getting hurt. Even after all those years, it still hurts. That it happened, I got over a long time ago. But why it happend is what gets me. Because of greed, the company that Mom worked for ignored all safety rules. I swear if I ever have a chance to get Hellen Thompson, the bitch who was Mom's supervisor and told her it was ok to stick her hand near a live machine in a dark alley, I will give her such a beat down....

Just a general rant!

Man I am soooo glad this week is over!!! Ya talk about tension! I've come to blows with my Mom about Money a few times this week. It's such a stupid thing to worry about! Somehow we've always made it and probably always will!

Thoughts On Love

Is it just me, or do any of you think it's unusual for a 32 year old guy to have never had a girlfriend or been on a date? Well, folks, that's me! I know that I'm no work of art, but gimme a break, theres gotta be someone out there for me! I'm a nice guy (at least I think I am!) Plus, being shy on my part doesn't help. Maybe someday....

Thoughts On Depression

I know it may sound crazy, but I have been depressed for 25 years or so. It all started with that nightmare called School. I was picked on every day for 12 years about my weight. I never had any friends, so it was quite tough. Now I know you may be saying "Dude, it's been 20 years, get over it", but that is easier said then done. Being picked on tears every bit of self respect and confidence you have to shreds, and makes you feel less then human. It takes every bit of energy I have to be around people, I am so shy. I was almost over that, but then my Mom got hurt. I was totally unprepared for the responsibilities thrust on me. Also, due to the circumstances of her injury, my heart just screams for vengeance against the people she worked with. Maybe someday I'll be able to get over all this stuff and have a normal life.