Monday, November 29, 2004


I love this time of the year! Holidays get me in a good mood, and I love being able to see my family. The only things that botehr me are the shopping, eating too much, and the fact the the fun goes by way too fast because Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years' are too close together.

Saturday, November 27, 2004


The past week has been a mixed bag or emotions for 2 of my friends, who will remain unnamed to protect their privacy. One found out a couple days ago that she's pregnant, the other was 5 months pregnant and expecting twins and had a miscarriage. Joy and Sadness, just goes to prove the point that there are equal and opposite forces at play in life.

Friday, November 26, 2004


I have met a new friend in my chat experience. Her name is Kat Williams. She is a truly nice person, and I'm glad that she's my friend. We talk all the time, and even as we speak, I'm getting ready to get offline, because she's supposed to call me in a few minutes. She has told me that apart from her boyfriend, that I am her best friend! Thank you Lord for putting such a wonderful person in my life!!:)


As many of you know, I'm very shy. Most of it is because of having to put up with people making fun of me because of my weight. The worst putdown I ever had to endure happened when I was 10 or 12. A friend of my Mom's had came to visit us, and brought her Daughter In Law with her. I had never met this girl before, the Daughter In Law. Instead of saying "Hi". "Hello", or "Fuck You", she said "Damn you're fat and ugly like my husband was when he was your age." My God, you just don't go around saying stuff like that to kids. From then on, I have tried to keep away from people as much as possible. I try, but I still get flashbacks to that moment.

Thursday, November 25, 2004


Thanksgiving at my house went pretty good!! Ate too much as usual though. It's nice being able to have some of the family around. In addition to Mom, Dad, and Myself, Julie, Leah, and Crystal were here too. Well, excuse me while I get dessert!


My favorite song of all time is The Chain by Fleetwood Mac. I like it because the music is so powerful. Expecially the Bass part in the middle and Lindsay Buckingham's killer guitar solo towards the end. When I saw them in concert in 1987, my ears were nearly blown off by that song!


"We might as well live for today, there might not be many more"

Lt. Starbuck, Battlestar Galactica

Monday, November 22, 2004


Here's the only pic of me and my sisters altogether that I've ever seen. Julie's on the right, Lori's on the left, and I wonder who that is is the middle? Posted by Hello

Sunday, November 21, 2004


As we get ready for the Thanksgiving season, I sat down to think about what I'm thankful for. Here's some of the things I've come up with:

1: My Family, even though we don't get along all the time and sometimes fight like idiots.

2: My Friends. Although I don't have that many of them, I love em all. Each of them brings
something wonderful and different into my life.

3: My Health. Thank you Lord, I've come a long way from that sick little baby I was.

4: My Church.

5: The chance to live in a free Country.

6: A nice home.

And a lot more things...

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Here's My Mom and Dad Posted by Hello


After watching scenes from last night's Detriot Pistons-Indiana Pacers NBA game, I think Sports has reached its low point. If you havn't heard about it, the game was called with 45 seconds to go because after a scuffle between 2 players, the crowd started throwing things, and you had players jumping into the stands going after fans, and fans jumping on the court going after players. As a big sports fan myself, I find it totally disgusting. Just because you have a ticket to a game doesn't mean you have the right to act like a total asshole. As for the players, I don't blame them for what they did. If someone was throwing Beer and food on me, I'd be seeing red myself.

Friday, November 19, 2004


Well, today my fellow CC1ers and I have been exiled from our beloved room! Some stupid idiot has flooded the room with bots (automated chatters) and is packing the room, so no one can get in. We are taking refuge in CC5, but it feels so....strange and unclean being in a different room.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004


Here are some of the things I'm looking for in my search for a significant other:

1: Looks don't matter.

2: Someone who can accept me despite my weight and looks.

3: Someone who can stand my little quirks.

4: Religion is not a requirement, but a Christian would be nice.

5: Likes getting out and hanging with other friends

6: Also, likes having quiet time together.

7: Will stick with me through thick and thin.

If you are interested, please submit your application :P

Sunday, November 14, 2004


Here are a few things I've learned this week:

1: When in doubt, go to God and ask.

2: When in doubt about telling someone that you've been in love with them for 4 years, and
they've just broken up with their BF, Either wait a few weeks or don't.

3: When someone pms you and says theyre someone, verify it.

4: Thank God that you have such great friends, and let em know it.


During my years in elementary school, I had the privilage(?) to be a classmate of a guy named Tony Mills. The kid was a complete nutcase. He would be right at home with the terrorists these days. He had no respect for anything or anyone. One day, he attacked a teacher with a pair of scissors, and one he sent me to the dr. by spraying something in my eyes. Needless to say, since he was a nutcase and I was the school outacast, we kinda became pretty good friends. I havn't seen him since 6th grade. Last I heard, 20 some years ago, he was shipped to a military school. Lord help them!

Friday, November 12, 2004


Here's another funny saying I came across in CC1 Land today:

Have you ever felt like a fire hydrant and your friends were dogs with no where to go?

Wednesday, November 10, 2004


Am I the only guy that likes to do housework? I used to really hate doing it, but after my Mom got hurt, and I had a lotta more resposibilities thrust upon me, I don't really mind. Mom is a neat freak, I must've inherited it from her:P

Tuesday, November 09, 2004


Last night as I was praying and asking God "Lord, what can I do to get my life back on track and get it to be the way YOU want it to be?" And then it all came to me. Call me a nutcase, but here's what he said In my words: First off, trust me, I know what's best for you, don't worry. Second, like yourself. I love ya more then anything. If you love yourself, then people will sense that and love you too. Don't worry about your weight or looks, if people judge you by that, then you don't need them in your life. Don't try to be something you aren't. Be yourself, and everything will fall in place. And don't let that stuff that happened to your Mom or what happened to you in school get you down. You may not know it or think it, but all this stuff has made you stronger. As for women, he said don't worry about that either. I've got someone for ya, and I am going to reveal her to you very soon. Believe me I am not crazy! I'm so glad that God has been listening to my prayers.

Monday, November 08, 2004

You Know You're Addicted To CSI When:

You know the biographies of ALL the personnel from the CSI website.

You never work (or go out) Thursday nites because you'll miss CSI (although you tape it anyway).

You can't sleep knowing that something exciting is going to happen on the next episode

Your friend asks you about the episode with "the sparkling room thingie," and you don't even have to think about it before informing them they're thinking of Scooba Doobie-Do.

Your puppy is called VEGAS as a compromise, because none of your kids could stop arguing over whether it was gonna be called Grissom, Warrick, Greggo or Nicky......

You start knocking on walls in hope of finding a dead body between them

You walk around with a Mag-lite

You change your lighting to UV lighting, just to see those stains in your carpet

You dust for prints in your knife drawer

You wrap your house with yellow crime-scene tape

You wear latex gloves while at home

You suddenly study chemistry to understand more about those chemical reactions.

You learn Photoshop you can make wallpapers out of the pics you have

You've changed your quote from "Smile at the world, and the world will smile back" to "Concentrate on what cannot lie... The evidence"

When you were a kid, you wanted to be an astronaut. Now you want to be a CSI

When you are the leader of a group, you think, "What kind of a leader should I be? Gris Style or Horatio?"

You stare at Grissom's eyeglasses and Horatio's shades, then search for the exact pair (or at least close to it!)

You plan on living in Las Vegas or Miami

Your choice of car? The one like Horatio has.

You have a jacket, with the word "Forencics" written on the back

You'd even settle for a shirt with the same word

You read HAMLET, cause it was mentioned that HORATIO came from the name of Hamlet's best bud, Horatio

You got arrested when found crossing the yellow tape.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to CSI.


You can recite *all* the dialogue from the trilogy.

You watch the entire trilogy at least once a month.

You wonder why the SW theme never makes it into those "clasical collections."

Any time you pick up a walkie-talkie or two-way radio, the first thing you say is "TK-421, why aren't you at your post?"

Whenever you went anywhere outside with your friends, you always walked single file, to hide your numbers.

You've written several letters to the President recommending that he dissolve the council, put power in the hands of the regional governors, and let fear keep the local systems in line.

In college, after several hours of poker, you got thrown our of the game for suggesting, "How about some sabacc?"

When trying unsuccessfully to snare that last Cheerio floating in your cereal bowl, you remarked, "the Force is strong with this one."

On Halloween, you would never dress as: Luke, Han Solo, Leia, Vader, Chewie, Threepio, Artoo

However, you would dress as: Wedge, Porkins, Crix Madine, that spider droid from Jabba's palace that fat dancer from Jabba's palace, Sy Snootles, the Cantina bartender. The monster in the trash compactor, Boba Fett, An Imperial probe droid

You've been pulled over by a policeman, and when asked to see your driver's license you replied, "You don't need to see my identification."

And when he asks about your two friends in the back "They're for sale, if you want them."

You have physically threatened anyone who referred to "Hans Solo" or "Dark Vader", confused Star Wars with Star Trek, or spellied Wookiee with only one "e."

You have held up an onion ring and said, "Look sir...droids!"

You've referred to Wedge Antilles or Boba Fett as "The Man."

You've bought a white Isuzu Trooper, strictly because of the name.

While sitting on the couch with your girlfriend, she comments about being cold. So, naturally, you slice open the side of the cushion and stuff her in.

You insist on spelling Pizza Hut "Pizza Hutt."

You dropped your religion and now live the way Yoda taught you.

You recorded all the new Star Wars comercials.

You frequently experience insomnia and, to counter this, begin counting nerfs.

You answer the phone "Die wanna wanga?"

Whenever you buy a new appliance, you make sure to get one that speaks Bacchi.

You call your aunt and uncle Aunt Beru and Uncle Owen.

Whenever you catch sight of cars behind yours, you say "Fighters, coming in, point three five."

Someone else in your car says "What about that tower?"

You respond, "You worry about those fighters, I'll worry about the tower", and moments later your car slams into the water tower the passenger was referring to.

When a cop catches you speeding, you floor it, saying "I've outrun Imperial starships, and not the local bulk cruisers..."

When someone apologizes to you, you choke him and tell him that you accept his apology.

You ride your motorbike through the forest at top speed, and survive after throwing yourself off just before it hits a tree.

You've 'wielded' a flashlight and made humming sounds.

You wave your hand purposefully and 'use the force' to open and close automatic doors or elevator doors.

You go over to a friends, go to his refrigerator, and crawl in throwing food and stuff over your shoulder and grunting.

You walk into an optometrist's office and shout: You will PAY for your lack of vision!

You have a Yoda figurine replacing the brand symbol on the hood of your car.

When accelerating your car to enter the freeway, you tell your passengers to strap in and prepare for light speed.

Your significant other dumps you because everytime she/he says, "I love you" you always respond, "I know."

You quote Yoda to defend your political beliefs.

You have so many SW Trilogy GIF's, JPG's, MIDI's, AVI's, WAV's, MPG's, icons and text files that you're rapidly running out of disk space and have to buy a bigger hard drive just to hold them all.

You have so many SW posters that you can't see your ceiling or floor, either.

You have so many SW toys that you can't see your SW posters anyway.

When leaving a restaurant, you can't resist signing Boba Fett or Darth Vader in the guestbook.

You went through a state of depression when Chewie died.

You look at "big hairy carpets" with more respect than before.

You speak Rodian.

You punch out trekkies who say "Death star my ass, I'd like to see those losers take out DS9."

With a blue-tinted plastic tube, a flashlight, two hours of a Saturday night, and 4 rolls of blue electrical tape, you finally complete your own working "Light-saber"

You listen for Obi-Wan while attempting to parallel park

1Your father asks you how fast your car is, and you reply, "Fast enough for you, old man!"

You could have sworn you saw bantha tracks during your trip to the grand canyon.

Every time somebody sneezes, you say, "May the force be with you."

The cinnamon buns in your hair start to grow mold.

You call your friend who is a midget Wicket.

You refer to money as credits without trying to.

You respond to any mention of the legality of something with "I will make it legal."

You start reliving the speeder bike chase on your motorbike.

Someone tells you your car is old and beat-up, you reply "She'll do .5 past light speed..."

You refer to getting off the freeway as coming out of hyperspace.

You are POSITIVE you are force-sensitive and only lack the proper training.

Someone says they will try to do something you automatically respond "Do or do not. There is no try."

By intense study you have actually figured out the location of every gun implacement on a star destroyer.

Your house robe is brown and extra large.

You type in the terms for a search engine as if entering coordinates, then shout "Punch it, Chewie!" as you click on search.

You argue about whether Star Wars is space fantasy or space opera.

You're out looking for a Wookie for your school's wrestling team.

You nickname your car the Millennium Falcon.

The last time a cute guy tried to hug you, your hands were dirty.

When your mom asks you to clean your room, you say "Leave that to me."

Your friends share recipes for cooking Ewok.

You have a long braid in you hair like Obi-Wan in E1.

You call your boss/teacher "Master"

You went to the nearest recruiting center and asked to be assigned to the 121st TIE squadren

When asked if you want to be buried or creamated you say "I'll just vanish like the rest of the Jedi"

You have a bad feeling about everything.

While partying with friends, you do your Darth Vader impression.

You try to get your car up to .5 beyond lightspeed, in a parking lot.

You call your girlfriend, "your Highness."

You keep calling your boyfriend, "Luke," "Han," or "Lando" by mistake.

You believe John Williams is the best composer ever (which, of course, he is!), and George Lucas is a god (which, too, is pretty much true!)

While listening to the soundtrack without knowing the name of the song you are listening to, you know exactly what's happening while it's playing.

In foreign language class, you tell the teacher, "Hey! If I'm fluent in over six million forms of communication, then how come I'm getting such a bad grade in this class?"

When your friends confide in you and tell you their deepest, darkest secrets, you say, "You are far too trusting."

When your dad says, "I am your father," you begin to scream uncontrollably and shout, "NOOOO! It's not true!" at the top of your lungs.

You have ever thought the world would be a better place if it were like the Rebel Alliance/New Republic.

You now want to become an astronaut to see if there really is a Lando system.

Obiwan Kenobi and Yoda come to you in your dreams and give you advice about tough situations you're dealing with.

Yoda's little sayings have had a profound impact on your life, and you abide by them religiously.

You've created lyrics to the songs in Star Wars.

Instead of saving for college, you save up for Star Wars stuff you plan to buy.

Anyone who doesn't like Star Wars you proclaim is an Imperial.

When you are ticked off at somebody, you send bounty hunters all over the place to find them and then you encase him in carbonite for a new wall decoration.

When your alarm clock goes off in the morning, your reply is, "Unexpected this is... and unfortunate!"

When riding your bike, you look behind you and accelerate wildly by pressing down on the petal with your right toe.

You've kept the "good" action figures stored separately from the "bad" ones.

As a child, whenever you had broken something, your response was always, "It must've had a self-destruct mechanism. I didn't hit it that hard."

You've refused to enter a cave/cavern/tunnel without a handgun and a large stick.

When you waited for a friend to catch up with you, you told him to hurry up or he'd be a permanent resident.

You've ever found yourself in a chat room, training Jedi.

You've ever told your younger brother at the dinner table, "Use the fork, Luke."

You've ever roped off your Star Wars Action Figure collection, claiming it to be an independent nation.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Star Wars.

You Know You're Addicted to Star Trek When

Your favorite drink: Tea, earl grey, hot

You can quote the name of every single episode just by watching the first 10 seconds of the introductory clip

You own 13 Star Trek Technical Manuals and Blue Print Schematics of all Starship but you no longer need them

When seeing a doctor, you're afraid of getting a shot and ask for a hypospray instead

Your electronic project: Positronic brain

You have 4 TVs at home and each of them are playing TOS, TNG, DS9 and VOY respectively 24 hours a day non-stop

You remembered the lock up code that Data uses on the Enterprise's Main Bridge before beaming down to meet Dr. Soong and Lore

You've learned playing the song "The Inner Light" with a penny whistle

After broken your neighbour's window, instead of just running away, you try to use the "Picard Maneuver" to escape

You're hosting a conference, your response to any suggestions: Make it so

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Star Trek.

Friday, November 05, 2004


This evening my friend Cathy has an away message on her yahoo messenger that Is really true.



After 4 years of being online, and nearly that long being a denizen of Yahoo Christian Chat 1, I've met many people there, and a lot of them I consider close friends. Here are some of them, and my thoughts about them:

Fran-Wonderful lady, love ya!

Cathy-One of the best people, still (hopefully?) One of my closest friends, though I've caused
her way too much grief sometime.

Lil, Jewels, and Breezey-The classy ladies of the room.

Deb/DK-An online Aunt figure to me.

Jilly-The epitome of coolness, brings fun to the group

Night/Happy/Julie-Nice...but SCARY!!!

Cali-Another classy lady, and another good friend.

Damian-He's the Boss.

Melissia-My "adopted little sister" and probably my closests friend.

Kat Williams-A newcomer, but cool.

And there are many more---you all know who you are.


Dear Lord, please help me . Please help me get over all the stuff that I've been through in my life. My lonliness, Mom's injury, and my being tortured in school have really brought me down, and kept me from being the person I can be. Im not being ungreatful for the things you've done for me, but these things that I've mentioned are the most important things that I need your help with. The most important thing of those, Lord, is please guide me to that special woman you've made for me. My lonliness is totally intolerable. Also Lord, please send me more friends. Anyway, I leave all this in your hands.


By Dave Barry

  1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
  2. If you had to identify, in one word, the reason why the human race has not achieved, and never will achieve, its full potential, that word would be “meetings.”
  3. There is a very fine line between “hobby” and “mental illness.”
  4. People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them.
  5. And when God, who created the entire universe with all of its glories, decides to deliver a message to humanity, he WILL NOT use, as his messenger, a person on cable TV with a bad hairstyle.
  6. You should not confuse your career with your life.
  7. No matter what happens, somebody will find a way to take it too seriously.
  8. When trouble arises and things look bad, there is always one individual who perceives a solution and is willing to take command. Very often, that individual is crazy.
  9. Nobody cares if you can’t dance well. Just get up and dance.
  10. Never lick a steak knife.
  11. Take out the fortune before you eat the cookie.
  12. The most powerful force in the universe is gossip.
  13. You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.
  14. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests that you think she’s pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging from her at that moment.
  15. There comes a time when you should stop expecting other people to make a big deal about your birthday. That time is age eleven.
  16. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender, religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside, we ALL believe that we are above average drivers.
  17. The main accomplishment of almost all organized protests is to annoy people who are not in them.
  18. A person who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice person.
  19. Your friends will love you anyway.
  20. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004


God, I know we're not supposed to question your motives, but there are a few things I'd really like to ask you:

1: Why did you let me be born with all my birth defects? Because of them, I don't think I'll
ever be able to have kids or be intimate with a woman.

2: Why did you make me so fat and unattractive? Because of that, I have been picked on all my
life, and probably will never find a GF or Wife, because we all know that all women care
about are looks.

3: Why did you not help me when I was being tortured in school? Because of that, I am afraid
of being around people and have zero self esteem.

4: Why did you let Mom get hurt? It has served no purpose except nearly drive me to a
nervous breakdown, because I just can't handle it.

Again, I know that we aren't supposed to question your motives but I'd really like to know.


I am soooo glad that this stupid election is over!!! I'm not much of a political fan, so I can live with Bush winning. I think George Washington was right when he told the country in his Farwell Address that Political Parties were not in the Country's best interest. The parties in Congress spend more time arguing with each other then actually doing "The People's Business" I know that everyone has their own ideas and opinions, but gimme a break!