A little bit late but....

Well, that damn Crown fell off my tooth again! Last week, I went to my dentist, and he said that hes going to make a bridge. So, I have an appointment on May 9 to have the work done. I really do hate having to have 2 good teeth ground down in order for the bridge to fit, but it sure the heck beats having the crown fall out every 3 months and having to have it put back on!

Another one of my hobbies

I don't know why, but I'm interested in ships. Dunno why, but I guess it's because my Dad was in the Navy, or because I'm a History fan. I have tons of books about ships, and I build models of them.

Evening

I just love the evenings this time of the year! It's nice to sit out on the porch, bring a coke and a book, and watch the Sun go down, listen to the birds and other animals, breathe in the nice fresh air, and just take in the scenery.

Here's One I'd love for my collection!! 

What A Clutch Pitching Performance!

As a Big Baseball fan, I've seen pleanty of well pitched games, but last night, I think I saw the best clutch pitching performance I've ever seen! In the Orioles-Devil Rays game last night, Orioles closer B.J. Ryan came in in the bottom of the 9th with the O's ahead by 1 run, gave up a leadoff triple, followed by a walk. My stomach was getting quite tight, knowing that the O's have blown several late inning leads against Tampa over the years, but have no fear! Ryan promptly struck out the next 2 batters, then reitred the last on a fly ball for the final out. No harm, no foul. What a performance!

Words Can Hurt

People always ask me why I'm so uptight about getting picked on in school. I'll tell ya why! It really does hurt hearing people make wisecracks about your weight and calling you all sorts of names every day for 12 years. Sometimes, hurtful words can stick in a person's mind for their entire lives, and the effect can be devastating. As you can tell from some of my posts, it has hurt me emensly. The way I was treated has made me severly shy, I'm vitrually afraid of being around people, and it has just messed my mind up generally. It would be so nice if people of all ages could think about what they say before they say it!

Feeling Better

I'm feeling better today, thank God! My stomach has finally stopped doing flip flops, and my head doesn't feel like it's ready to explode anymore!

I Feel Like Crap!

This weekend, I have felt totally crappy! I guess I have the Flu or something. Yesterday (Saturday) I was throwing up all day, and today, I've had it coming out the other end, and I've slept most of the day. Hopefully tomorrow, I'll feel better!

What A Way To Meet The New Neighbors!

When I was a little kid, I had a friend who lived right behing our house. To get to his place, I had to walk up through our garden, and climb over a fence. I did that pleanty of times without having any probs, but one day, I got stuck on the fence! I started yelling at the top of my lungs, but since our house was a good bit away from the fence, my Parents didn't hear me. Anyway, this guy comes running up, and gets me down. Turns out, he and his family had just moved into another house next door, and they hadn't had time to introduce thenselves to the neighborhood. So, this family and mine became good friends, and we kept in touch until they moved away a few years before we moved to West Virginia. Funny way to meet the neighbors, huh?

I am Itching to Death!

Well, Spring's here, and that must mean I'm wearing shorts and a short sleeved shirt, and also that I'm itching to death. I'm itching so bad because I'm allergic to the sun. It makes me break out with a rash that looks like Poison Ivy. The strange thing with this it that you can't stop it from coming, but you can easily make it clear up. this has affected me all my life, and it seems to get worse each year.

Backstabbing

Sometimes it takes somthing happening to show who your friends really are. My now ex-friend Jewels, who I have written about a few times in here, has accused me of spying on another yahoo group for the COR and leaking information and stealing ideas. I fervently deny all these charges. You can make wisecracks about my weight and looks, but DO NOT inpune my honor or integrity, or you will be dealt with swiftly and harshly!

A Royal Ass Kicking!

We recently had elections for president of the COR Dana, my opponent, defeated my by a vote of 33-12. Being a gracious loser, I harbor no ill will to her, and will support her to the fullest, because she's already a good friend to me!

A Total Idiot!

There is a guy that goes around the Christian chatrooms I frequent that goes by the screen name of Lukespacewalker. This guy is some piece of work. He is totally insane. Luke has said that people get sick because they don't tithe. The piece of crap told a lady that used to come into the room that was dying of cancer that if she tithed, she would get better. She ended up dying. Luke also said that my Mom got hurt for the same reason, and that my medical problems happened because I went to the dr. But the things that really made me laugh my ass off were when he said that he played Frizbee with God, and he once told a lady that she was going to hell because her boobs were too small. Sheeesh!

Baseball is back!

I am sooo glad that tomorrow Night is Baseball's opening Night! With no Football, hockey, and Basketball isn't my kinda sport, It will be nice to have something to watch and listen to. I'm a big fan of the Baltimore Orioles, tolerant of the Red Sox, but totally despise the Yankees!

What loves means to me

As some of my frequent readers know, I'm looking to find Love. What does love mean to me? It means finding the person that I know god has absolutly put on this Earth for me. A woman that doesn't care about my weight or the fact I can't have kids, A person that will stick with me through the good times and not so good times, want to share special experiences with, make me happy without even trying, and just generally want to spend the rest of their life with me. Im waiting, I hope it doesn't take too long for this person to show up!

Let the Past Stay in the Past

Even though my past has radically affected me, I am finally not letting it get me down. There's nothing I can do about the hell I went through in school, so I'm not gonna worry anymore about it. Hopefully, those idiots have grown up and act like adults, even though I have no desire to see any of them again. It will always be a part of me, but it will not be the whole me, if that makes sense. There are enough friends in my life now that it makes it a lot easier to go forward. Thank you all!

Spring

I am soooo Glad that Spring is finally here! It's nice to see the flowers starting to bloom, the weather to get warm, and a sense of renewal. It's supposed to get up into the 60's tomorrow, so I think I'll break out the shorts!

Seeking My Purpose In Life

God, What is your plan for me? What am I doing here on Earth? I pray about this all the time, but I havn't got an answer. I guess we'll find out in due time!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Well, It looks like I'm going to have to make a dentists appointment soon! That stupid crown is once again coming loose on my front tooth, and since there's not much of the original tooth left, they Dentist is probably going to have to make a bridge. Oh how fun!

A quick Prayer Request

For all of you Christians and others who pray, I have a big request for you. Please pray for my friend Kat. She is going to be going in for surgery on a MAJOR hernia in a few weeks. She had the same surgery a couple years ago, and she almost died. Even though I've only known her for about 6 months or so, she's been such a good friend, I don't know what I'd do if anything happened to her.

My Opinion on the Terri Schiavo Case

In my opinion, the Terri Schiavo case has gone farther then it should have. I don't blame her parents for keeping hope alive that by some miracle, that Terri would recover. However, all the medical tests show that the parts of her brain that control thinking and reasoning have turned to mush (excuse the way I say that) . As for the politicians, they have NO business sticking their noses in this. This is a private matter, and should remain so. Think what you may about her husband, he is her guardian, and what he says goes. If something ever happens to me that leaves me in that state, I want NO measures taken to prolong my life.

I Found A Neat Baby Pic Of Myself Today

Looking through our photo albums today, I found a neat baby pic of myself! It's me dressed up in a golf hat, a pair of shades, a long blonde wig, and long johns. I just about laughed my ass off looking at it! I'll have to scan it onto the comp and post it here sometime.

Things I Miss From My Childhood

Looking back, here's some things I miss from my childhood

Getting up on Satruday Mornings and watching cartoons that were actually worth watching

Going to the Library in Fairfax every couple weeks and reading through all the editons Of Jane's Fighting Ships, and checking out some books so many times that they wore out

Going to the Coin Auction with Dad every Thursday night.

Going camping with the Boy Scouts.

Staying up all night listening to the radio during the summer.

Skipping school every once in a while and coming up here to West VA. with Mom.

Going every Friday night to Waxie Maxie's and buying actual records.

Hiding out in our basement when I needed privacy.

Hanging out at Woolco, where my Mom worked, and playing with the Atari until I got my own.

Going out to eat at the Cheasapeake Bay Seafood house.

Hanging out with my Sister's ex BF David

Messing around with the girls at school

And a lot of other things!

Finally, The End

Yesterday, Scott Peterson was officially sentenced to death for the murder of his Wife and unborn Son. The dude showed aboulutely NO expression on his face during the trial, verdict, or sentencing. I know if I was innocent, I would've been screaming at the top of my lungs. He must be some evil person!

Here's a pic of myself that I took with my Web Cam. 

The COR

I've told you about my friends in chat before. We've made a group call the Council Of Regulars
(COR for short.) It's a group where we just hang out, post jokes or whathaveyou , discuss various topic, including religion, and just get together to have a good time. Anyone is invited to joinm no matter what your race, gender, nationality or religion (or lack thereof, as we have a few satanist and athiest among our numbers) If you're interested, click on the link where I typed Council Of regulars.

The new Battlestar Galactica

I've been watching the new Battlestar Galactica on Sci Fi Channel, and I love it! It took me a while to accept Starbuck as a women, but she's tougher then Dirk Benedict's charcter in the original series, though cigars are sooo unlady like. Edward James Olmos' Portrayal of Commander Adama is more militaristic then the late Lorne Greene's version, but both are great leaders. Jamie Bamber's portrayal of Captain Apollo is just about even with Richard Hatch, though I'd give the original a slight edge. The new Portayal of Colonel Tigh could be improved. He is a major jerk, and drunk all the time. Boomer could also use some improvement, even though she's a cylon. The new version of Baltar is great. I love James Callis' mad scientist version a lot more then the power hungry traitor played by the late John Colicos. As for the Cylons's I'd rather surrender to Number Six then the original "walking toasters." The new special effects are great. I love the new renderings of the Galactica, the Viper, and the Cylon ships, though they retain some familiarity from the original. This is a great show, and I hope it lasts!

An Update On My Mom

Today, Mom had yet another appointment at her dr's in Hagerstown, MD., about her hand. She has to have more surgery on it. This time, the Doc wants to fuse some bones in her wrist. She doesn't know if she's going to go through it yet, since she's had enough operations on that hand the past 5 years to last a lifetime. I'll fill you all in when anything happens!

Why would God choose to make someone single?

I hear a lotta people say "well, it's part of God's plan for my life that I be single." Why would God Curse someone to a life of lonliness and misery? Don't get me wrong, I don't argue with God, but I think that If God had something for you to do, I think him making your happy would get the job done faster.

I Have Gmail Invites

I have 50 Gmail invites. If you want one, just leave a comment with your email address.

My Church

I have been attending Old Fields Baptist Church for almost 8 years. It's a nice little church a few miles from where I live. A friend of my Mom's and I asked us to go one Sunday in 1997. I was hesitant about going at first, since, well, After every thing I had been through, God and Me weren't on speaking terms. So the first time I went, I was quite nervous, not being comfortable around people. Anyway, After a few times, I got comfortable there, and have been going there ever since. The people who go there are some of the nicest people I've ever met, and they've really helped me in my walk with God.

A Pleasnt Surprise

Today, I had a nice treat! My friend Kat called me on the phone. She's probably my best friend in the whole world. I've known her almost a year now. She's one of the nicest people I've ever had the privilage of meeting! She's funny, witty, smart, and just downright nice. I love talking to her and her Husband Keith on the phone, we have some really fun conversations, you never know what's gonna come up. Thank you Lord for putting her in my life!

The Math teacher

In 10th and 12th Grade, at Falls Church High School, I had an Algebra teacher by the name of Bruce Campbell. He was a good teacher (even though Algebra still is Greek to me:P), but he was sorely lacking in the people skills. He treated most of us like dogs, even Yours Truly, if you didn't learn something right the first time. Mr. Campbell was an older guy, he told us how he guarded the subways of New York during WW2, so maybe I guess he was just being a grouchy old man. Anyway, he did have his moments. He gave me a Math book as a prize for having perfect attendance in 10th Grade, and the day I had my Finals before Graduation, he told me how good of a student I was.

A Beautiful Day!

Today was a really pretty day! It got up into the 50's, and all the snow is about gone. Spring is right around the corner, and I'll be soooo glad when it gets here!

Thank God for the Iggy Button!

Lord, thank you for the Iggy Button, that wonderful device that keeps my screen clear of those "poor" Africans, Indian/Pakistani preachers, and all the other undesirables that would harm my chat experience!

Here's my "Room Mate" Molly the Cat! 

Clarification about the 1933 $20 Gold Piece

To the person who left a comment:

The 1933 $20 Gold Piece is illegal to own because in 1933, the US went off the gold standard, the production of gold coins were discontinued, and any coins not delivered to the Treasury by a certain date were illegal to own, and the $20's had not been delivered by that date.

ACCEPTANCE

Why is it that a lot of people can't accept fat people like myself? I don't care what they think of me, I'm just wondering? I guess you can blame the fashion magazines. Seems like people think that if you're not so thin that you can read a newspaper through them, you're nothing but a piece of shit. It's a shame..I've known a lotta fat people who are a lot nicer then some skinny people I've met!

WHAT'S THE COIN YOU'D MOST WANT IN YOUR COLLECTION IF YOU WERE A COLLECTOR

What's the coin you'd most want in your collection if you were a collector? For me, it would be a tossup between the 1804 Silver Dollar and the 1933 $20 Gold Piece. I'd take the Dollar because only 15 were minted (long story) and a couple years ago, one was sold for over a million bucks. I'd take the $20 Dollar Gold, because It is the rarest example of the most beautiful coin on the face of the Earth, and since that particular date is illegal to own, that just adds to the mystique!

WHAT AM I?

I know I've written about my life, but now I think it's time to give you a run down on the real me:

I AM:

A Son
A Brother
A Nephew
An Uncle
A Christian
A Friend
A Coin Collector
A History Buff
A Computer Geek
An Avid Reader


In Other words, I'm Me!

THE FRIST PART OF MY STORY

Here's the first part of my story I was writing that I mentioned in a previous post!


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Starbuck thought that he would either die from sheer boredom, or go insane from lonliness. It had been over 6 months since he crash landed on that godforsaken planet. He and Boomer had been on a routine patrol when they were ambushed by a Cylon patrol. They managed to shoot down the 2 Cylon raiders, but not before one of them scored a hit on one of Starbuck's engines. “Boomer, I'm not gonna be able to make it back to the Galactica, so you go on and warn the fleet, I'll set down on that nearby planet, “ he calmly announced over the comm system. “Ok Buddy, I'm on my way, but don't make yourself too comfortable on that rock, because when we beat off that Cylon attack, they'll be a shuttle with your name on it headed your way,” Boomer said, trying to hide his fear. After saying his farewells, Starbuck headed towards the planet, knowing that he could very well never see his friends or crewmates ever again. If it tunred out to be a full scale Cylon attack, Commander Adama would never risk the lives of the remnants of the Human Race to rescue a single pilot, even if it was the best damn pilot in the whole Colonial Fleet.


As the days went by, Starbuck continuely thought of the events that had transpired since the landing. Cy, the Cylon warrior who had also “survived “ the crash of his Raider during the battle, who Starbuck had repaired and created a friendship, and had given his life by fighting off the Cylon crew who had homed in on the distress beacon from Cy's ship. He gave his life that Starbuck could lauch the ship that he had made for Angela, the women who seemed to have also been a castaway, and her newborn baby son. After about 3 months, Starbuck had given up hope that perhaps the Galactica had found the ship, and perhaps had traced its route, leading back to him.





In his thoughts, Starbuck also thought about his friends and crewmates that he had left behind. Apollo, Boomer, Jolly, Adama, Athena, Colonel Tigh, and especially Cassiopia. Gods, how he loved that woman! From the second he first layed eyes on her, aboard that freighter after the destruction of the Colonies, he knew that she was the woman for him. He resolved that the first thing he would do if he was ever returned to the Galactica would be to ask Cassiopia to marry him.



Perhaps, feeling guilt for the first time since he was a kid, Starbuck thought that maybe his stranding was the God's punishment for his faking being sick on the day of the Cylon attack, just so he could get in on a stupid card game and not go on patrol. If he had been with Apollo on that patrol, they probably would have made it back to the fleet in time to warn them, and instead of being on this rock, he might have been back home on Caprica, or more important, Zac, Apollo's younger brother who had volunteered to go on patrol in Starbuck's stead, might still be alive. “Shoul've, would've, . could've, no use thinking about it now, what's done is done,” Starbuck would mutter to himself..


Trying to stave off boredom, Starbuck did everything and anything to keep himself occupied, exploring the planet, finding a large cave and moving his camp into it, and gathering food and water. Coming across a pask of rodent like creatures, he took his laser and finally found something a lot better tasting then the horrid plants he'd been living off of.


While napping one rainy afternoon, Starbuck heard a noise that indicated to him that he had been rescued, or had finally lost his mind: The sound of a Viper's engines! Running out of the cave, he saw the fighter flying near his position, and he started waiving like a madman. “The Galactica came back for me, thank God,” He spoke under his breath and he ran toward the clearing where the Viper landed. He was about ready to run up to the pilot and shake his hand when he noticed the insignia on the pilot's Jacket. It wasn't the Glactica's crest, a group of twelve stars symbolizing the Colonies, but a winged sword, crest of a ship and crew he'd thought dead. Only when his brain had digested all that he has seen would Starbuck allow himself to pass out.

A NOTE TO MY DETRACTORS

To all you idiots who have picked on me all my life:

Did you ever stop to think that I'm fat not because I eat all the time, but because I have only 1 kidney and other assorted health problems? That's right, you have been making fools of your selves for no reason the past 30 years! If you don't beleive me, I challenge any 0f you to follow me for a day and watch what I eat! I dont give a f**k what ya think of me anymore, you have no power over me anymore! I've been in a shell the past 25 years, and dammit, I'm coming out and in force! If ya can't accept the way I look, then shut the hell up!

YOU'D THINK THEY'D HAVE SOMETHING MORE SOPHISICATED ON A FUTURISTIC SPACESHIP!

Friday night, I was watching the new Battlestar Galactica, and there was a scene that took place in a bathroom on borard the ship! It looked like a bathroom stall from a restaurant, even with rolls of toilet paper. You'd think that the producers of the show would have a bit more imaginiation, and come up with something different! The show still rocks though!

MY FIRST COMPUTER

My first computer was a Commodore 128 that my parents got me for Christmas in 1985. Back then it was state of the art, but these days the disk drive would make a good doorstop. I did have a lotta cool games for it, mostly war and sports games. Oh that lightning fast 24 baud modem:P and the neat monochrome monitor! I'd probably still be using it today if my Niece hadn't thought it was a piano and banged the keyboard to death:P

ANOTHER REASON TO WEAR YOUR SEATBELT!!

Yesterday, while going on a job, my Dad skidded on a patch of ice, went down the side of a hill, and totaled his truck. He managed to escapw with nothing more then a sore neck and bumps and bruises, but if he didnt have his seatbelt on, it could have been worse!

ANGER AND REVENGE-IT IT WORTH IT?

I'm starting to think that maybe all my anger and wanting revenge for my Mom's injury is not worth it. I don't think it's accomplished anything except bring me close to a nervous breakdown and cost me a few friends. Being mad only brings temporary satisfaction, and won't change what happened. Maybe now I can put the whole damn thing in the past where it belongs and get on with life. I've been so immersed in it, I havn't had a life the past 5 years.

2 NEW PROJECTS

I've decided to take on a a couple of fun and possibly productive productive projects! First, after watching the episode of Galactica 1980 on the Sci Fi channel where Starbuck dissapeared, I'm trying to write a small story based on it. And also, a friend of mine sent me a link to a free site that has web design lessons, and I'm gonna give that a whirl! Maybe something will come out of these!

CHILLING OUT

The past few days, I've found something to ease my stress! I just whip out the Walkman, put in one of my 20 year old tapes I havn't listened to since they were new, and sit back, relax, and think of all the good times I had during the years they were made. Dang, I sure had a varied taste in music back then! I've found everything from Madonna to AC-DC!

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WRITE!

While I was watching the ABC News this evening, I watched a segment where they talked about people who had been fired from their jobs for criticizing the company or bosses in their blog writings. I think that is totally dumb! As you as you don't slander someone or reveal trade secrets, you should be able to write whatever you want.

A BEAUTIFUL DAY!!

Today was a wonderful day here today! It was nice and warm, getting close to 60. I spent most of the day outside, walking and exploring. I love days like this in the middle of winter, and it's supposed to be like this the next couple of days!!

TELEPHONE ETIQUETTE

Here's something I found while surfing through blogs!

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Telephone Etiquette

Our telephone rang a few minutes ago. I answered…

“Hello?”

Child’s voice on other end: “May I please speak with my daddy?”

“Who’s your daddy? Um… I think you have the wrong number.”

I cannot believe I actually said “Who’s your daddy?”

I’ll not be living this one down for a long, long time.

ARMED AND DANGEROUS!

While looking through a drawer a couple days ago looking for something, I can across my Dad's old .22 pistol. When I was about 4 or 5, the family was out camping and I guess I crawled in the car or something. Well....I picked up the gun, pulled the trigger, and blew out the windshield! Poor Car!:P

More from the Christian Right 

A THANKS TO A COMMENTOR!

To the anonymous (I have a couple ideas who it might be) person who replied to the previous post, thank you for caring! I'm trying to get over everything! It's not easy, but not impossible!

MY PARENTS GREATEST FIGHTS

Over the years, my Parents have had some major fights! The bad thing is that they're about stupid shit! Here's some of the ones I remember:


1994-Dad takes too long finding a new Job-they tear up everything in the house, throw dishes around and break everything. Even I got in on that one, I kicked a hole in my wall out of frustration.


1996-Dad forgets to put his paycheck in the bank-Mom kicks him out for 2 days.

1997-Dad makes a stupid joke-They dont talk for a month.

1998-They get in a fight over pizza-Dad takes his clothes, throws them in the yard, and burns them.

2000-My Mom goes into her room to read, hears me yelling at the dogs to get off me, thinks Dad is molesting me, kicks him out for a week.

2001-I go into my room early to put clothes away, Mom thinks once again that Dad did something to me, they carry on for a couple days.

My sisters always said when they were kids that when Mom didn't get her way, she always yelled molestation.

2002-Dad lights a cig in car, runs into a ditch, she packs up and leaves for a day.

1998-We buy TILE to put on the kitchen floor, they get into a fight over weather it's tile or carpet.


Well that's enough, I think ya get the point.

HISTORICAL WHAT IFS'

As some of you know, I'm a really history buff. Also I'm a big Star Trek fan. What does that have to do with this post? Well....In Star Trek, whenever they traveled back in time, they were always careful not to do anything to mess up the time line. That shows you that just one little misstep can change everything. I was thinking about how things would be if certain events in world and US history had been different, here's some things and a few questions:

WHAT IF:


George Washington had declined command of the Continental Army? Would there even be a US today?

Lincoln had not been murdered-Would Reconstruction have ended quicker?

One exta Senator had voted "guilty" In Andrew Johnson's impeachment trial, thus removing him from office-would the Radical Republicans' treatment of the South been so harsh, that reconstruction would have taken decades?

There would have been no internal division in the Republican Party in 1912, thus enabling President Taft or Theodore Roosevelt to defeat Woodrow Wilson- Would the US have entered WWI earlier?

TheStock Market would have not crashed in 1929-Would Hoover have been reelected in 1932, and New Deal would have not been started?

FDR decided not to run for a 3rd term in 1940-Would the US have entered WW2 Earlier?

Had FDR not died in April 1945, would he have authorized use of the Atomic Bomb, or would he have gone along with the plan to invade Japan, thus extending the war, and causing millions of more casulties?

Had JFK not been assasinated-Would the Vietman War been avoided?

If Pres. Carter had attacked Iran during the hostage crisis-Would he have been reelected in 1980, thus sparing us 8 years of Reaganism?

Had the Supreme Court ordered the Florida Recount to continue-Would Al Gore have won the election?

Had 9/11 not occured? Would Bush still invade Afghanistan and Iraq?


And many other possibilities---

IT'S ALMOST OFFICIAL!!!!!!!!!!!11

The Player's union has approved a trade that would send Sammy Sosa from the Cubs to my Baltimore Orioles. I am sooooo excited!! Now we have 5 people (Sosa, Miguel Tejada, Raphael Palmeiro, Javy Lopez, and Jay Gibbons) With the potential to hit over 30 homers and drive in 100 plus RBI's. I guess that the Cubs were desperate to get rid of Sosa, because all the O's gave up was Jerry Hairston and a couple of minor leaguers. If the O's can get 1 more starting pitcher, this team could be as good as the 1996 and 97 teams that made it to the American League Championship Series both years. I dont think they are ready to challenge the Yankees and Red Sox for the AL East title, but they could possibly challenge for the Wild Card. Can't Wait till Opening Day!!!

I FEEL KINDA WEIRD

I really feel kinda weird! We havn't able to go to Church the past 2 weeks because of the ice here. I miss it! Hopefully next week, the weather will be more cooperative. God, I'm glad ya understand!

THE LOSS OF A FRIEND

Today, I lost a friend. Not by death, but by I don't know what. I had been friends with Cathy, who I have mentioned a couple times on here, for almost 4 years, but today, I got a pm from her boyfriend telling me to back of from her. I guess I can live with one less friend in my life.

A PLEASANT MEMORY OF SCHOOL FOR ONCE

The first girl I ever had a crush on was Alice Visconti in fourth through sixth grade. I dunno why I liked her, I just did. She and her sister Jenny would come around my place all the time and we would hang out and go to the stores. We had a pretty good time. However, when we got to junior high school, she was one of the people who turned against me, and I havn't seen her since then...ahh the memories!

AN OBSERVATION

I know this might get me in trouble but...

Why is it that so called "Christians" (I call them So called because the way some of the more extreme ones treat certain types of people) can get away with bashing gays, the media, hollywood and the like, but when you try to point out their faults, they get all upset and call anyone who disagress with them ungodly. Believe me, I'm a Christian, and I would never do anything like that. I respect all kinds of people.

EXERCISE

As a lot of you know, I'm fat. Last week, we bought a treadmill. I have been using it ever day since, except for today, since my back and knees hurt too much. I can already feel a difference. My legs feel a lot stronger, it doesn't hurt me to walk a long way, and I'm not always out of breath. I run it 3 times a day for 1o minutes. Now ifI could get a good diet going.....

JEALOUSY

I will admit it, I am jealous becuase it seems all of my friends are getting married and I'm not. Through out my 33 years on this Earth, you'd think some person of the female persuasion would find me interesting, even though I'm fat and ordinary looking. Everyone says it'll happen when the time comes, but I dunno. I try to be nice to everyone, but it doesn't seem to help any. I am seriously beginning to think that that phrase God has someone for everyone may not be so true.

Sweet Relief!

I never really knew just how theraputic blogging can be! After my post of a few days ago about how mad I was at the bitch who got my mom hurt, I feel a helluva lot better! It feels so good to be able to blow steam and put pen to paper (or in this case fingers to keyboard) and write down how you really feel!

THOUGHT OF THE DAY

Happiness is easy to achieve but hard to maintain.

SNOW

Today we had our first measurable amount of snow. I think we probably had about 2 inches or so, plus ice. Snow I can handle, but ice....expecially when you live on a hill like I do!

THINGS I REGRET NOT DOING

I've missed out on a lotta things in my life that now I wish I woulda done.

Didn't go to my High School Prom: Didn't figure they wanted me there since I was the most hated
person in School.

Didn't tell Stephanie Weber I had a HUGE crush on her in High school. See above for the reason.

Shoulda done a better job sticking up for myself in school, wouldn't have all the probs I do now.


Shoulda watched what I ate.

Shoulda tried not to be so shy.

And millions of other things...

MY IDEA FOR A WEDDING

Lately, a few of my friends have or are gonna be getting married. In case I ever get married, here's my idea of a good wedding. Go to a judge, get the deed done, then lunch at Mcdonald's. Romantic, huh? I hate dressing up!

A NOTE TO THE BITCH THAT RUINED MY FAMILY

Dear (Hah!) Hellen Thompson:


Do you know what you have done to my family? Your greed has ruined not only my Mom, but our entire family! You were thinking about nothing but making money for the company when you told Mom that it was ok to work on that machine while it was running. Because of that, Mom's hand will never work again, and because of the trauma she went through, she now has to take seizure medicines. And also, you worthless piece of shit, for the first year after the accident, she did nothing but sit on the edge of her bed and cry. And it has also affected the relationship between her and me. Before June 28, 2000, We did all sorts of things together, we took of every couple of weekneds and went down to VA, and all sorts of other things, but now we cant do that much, since she can't drive long distance anymore. I don't know how it's affected my Dad, because he keeps it to himself, but I sure the fuck can tell you how it's hurt me. First off, I have been depressed for almost 5 years because of this, and all I do at night is cry. Second, I have slowly been losing faith in God, because he did nothing to prevent this. I was always a cheerful person, but not anymore. So do not come to me asking for forgiveness, because while my Mom has come to terms with this, you wont get any mercy from me. I hope you have some sort of painful accident or disease, then you would know what you've done to us.


See you in Hell Bitch

ANOTHER FUNNY STORY FROM MY CHILDHOOD

When I first started collecting coins, My Dad and I found this neat coin shop in Annandale, VA. Every Thursday night, they had an auction there, and it was nothing for us to blow a bunch of money each week. The funny thing was, the people that ran the place thought that Dad was the collector. Actually, back then he couldnt tell one coin from another. Most of the people that participated in the auctions were older, more experienced collectors. So imagine their surprise when you got a 9 or 10 year old kid gathering in their huddles and getting in on the converstaions, and talking about coin stuff that a kid my age had no business even knowing about! You shoulda seen the looks on those guys' faces. HEHE

THE GOAT HORNS GO TO...

Today's goat of the day is NY Jets kicker Doug Brien. He missed 2 field goal attempts in the last 2 minutes of the Jets' 20-17 overtime playoff loss to the Pittsburgh Steelers. His first miss, from 47 yards, doinked of the crossbar, and the 2nd from 43, he flat out missed. One week ago you won a game against San Diego with an OT field goal, so wear the horns with shame, Doug!

MY FAVORITE COIN DESIGNS

As a coin collector, I've seen a lot of different coin designs. Here's some of my favorites:



1: $20 St. Gaudens Gold Piece: Universally called the most beautiful design, but there are a
lotta people who will say that The Walking Liberty Half is.

2: Walking Liberty Half: See above. Love that obverse!


3: Peace Dollar: Love that Eagle on the Mountain reverse!


4: Standing Liberty Quarter: I've given this coin a nickname: "The Janet Jackson Coin"
because of a "wardrobe malfunction" (for those non collectors readign this, on the 1916 issue
of this coin, one of Ms. Liberty's boobs are sticking out. Later issues had it covered with
armor.

5: Frankin Half Dollar: Just a great overall design.


My Favorite Paper Money design is the 1918 $2 Federal Reserve Bank Note. That Battleship
on the back gets me both as a collector and a navy buff.


I have a couple foreign coin designs too that I really like:


Reverse of the British Gold Soverign: Pistrucci's rendering of St. George Vs. the Dragon still
looks good after 200 years.

Voyageur reverse of the old Canadian silver dollars. The 2 guys rowing a canoe by and island with the Northern Lights in the background really sharp.


Any comments from you collectors out there?

MY MOM IS INSANE!

Yes, I think my Mom is nuts! I know shes in discomfort because of her hand, but still, she still should have som common sense left. We nearly got into a fight today. She was going to g ovisit a friend, but my Dad, like he always does when he doesn't want to do something, went to take a nap. I was going to watch the dogs while she was gone, but I had to go to the bathroom first. She thought I was going back into my room and let the dogs run all over the house, so she started throwing one of her fits. If you woulda given me 2 minutes, I woulda been outta the bathroom! Geez!!

A DAY I'D RATHER FORGET!

Wednesday has to have been one of the worst days I've been through. First off, My Mom wasn't doing too good. Ever since she got hurt, she has been having seizures every once in a while, and on this day, she started showing symptoms of starting to have one. I got no sleep, because I was afraid that she would have one and we'd have to call 911. Luckily, she's doing OK now. And also, my friend Kat was going through some stuff that I really don't think she'd like discussed. THANK GOD TODAY IS FRIDAY!!

FORGIVENESS

Forgiveness is such a hard thing to do! I know that it is a necessary thing to do in order to find peace in life and to put the past behind, byt nonetheless it's difficult. Being a Christian, it's a must in my case. There are 2 major things/people I need to forgive. The first is all those people who picked on me in school and made my life a shamables. That one, I'm working on. The one I'm having a REAL hard time doing is forgiving Hellen Thompson for getting my Mom hurt. If it had been a plain old accident, I'd be fine. But since it was due to greed, therein lies my problem. I guess it's becuase I'm one of those people who just can't tolerate stupidity. I was making a comment about it in the chatroom last night and my friend Cathy said " Billy, you just gotta give it to God, or it will eat you alive." I'm trying, I really am....

A DOSE OF REALITY

Sometimes, things happen that let you know that sometimes, the things that worry you or you complain about just arent worth it. Today, that hit me full force. In Church today, a lady that goes there was talkign about her battle with Cancer that began a year ago. She seems to have beaten it, but some tests she had last week showed some things, so we're still praying for her. My point is, My problems with my weight, friends , and all the other stuff I worry about aren't nothing compared to what she's goin through.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS!

I usually don't make New Year's resolutions, but since I'm starting a new page in my life, I thought it would be nice to challenge myself. So here they are:



1: Lose Weight

2: Find a Girlfriend

3: Make more friends

4: Don't get down on myself so much

5: Have a better relatioship with God



Well, I'll let ya know at the end of next year if I kept any of em!

WHAT AN IDIOT!

While I was in the Chatroom today, some stupid hardline "Christian" Said that the Tusnamis that his SE Asia were God's way of killing Moslems. What a ****ing idiot! Somehow, I really don't think that God would kill 117,000 people because of their religious views. If I start thinking like that dumbass, you all have permission to shoot me!

WHAT A COMEBACK!

A couple of days ago, my friend Jewels came up with the best comeback/putdown I've ever heard! Some idiot in the chatroom was giving her a hard time, so she said, "Dude, go suck on one of my used tampons!" I laughed my fat ass off for hours! You go girl, you tell em!

A GREAT HONOR!

A couple days ago, my friends Kat and Keith asked me if I'd like to be a Godparent for the baby they're having. Of course, I said yes! I consider it to be a great honor. Since I can't have kids of my own, it would be cool helping guide a little one through life. Check back in 18 years and ask if I had any success:P

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hi everyone! Hope you all had a nice Christmas! things were pretty good in my home. Here's what I got:

Battlestar Galactica DVD Box Set
A new airbrush and compressor
2 pairs of jeans
2 shirts
A new pair of tennis shoes
3 books
lottery tickets
free movie pass
minutes for my phone
socks
rechargable batteries


We went over to my sister's for breakfast, and had a nice turkey dinner at home.

SURPRISE!!!

Today, We pulled a pleasnt trick on my Niece Leah. My Sister and bro in law bought her a new Jeep Liberty for Christmas. On the pretense of going to the dealership to schedule a oil change, they went ot the dealership, My parents and I went in later, and was she Tickled!!

YOU KNOW YOU'RE ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET WHEN...

These are all pretty true!!!



You kiss you girlfriend's home page.

Your bookmarks list takes 15 minutes to scroll from top to bottom.

Your eyeglasses have a web site burned into them.

You find yourself brainstorming for new subjects to Google.

You refuse to go to a vacation spot with no electricity and no phone lines.

You finally do take that vacation, but only after buying a cellular modem and a laptop.

You spend half of the plane trip with your laptop on your lap.... and your kid in the overhead compartment.

Your dreams are in HTML.

You find yourself typing "com" after every period when using a word processor.

You turn your computer off and get this awful epmty feeling, like you just pulled the plug of your loved one.

You refer to going to the bathroom as downloading.

You start introducing yourself as "Jim at I-I-Net dot net dot au"

Your heart races faster and beats irredgularly each time you see a new WWW site address printed on the TV, even though you've never had heart problems before.

You step out of the room and realize that your roomates have moved and you don't have any idea when it happened.

You turn up the volume read loud when leaving the room so you can hear if anyone IM's you.

You wife drapes a blond wig over the monitor to remind you of what she looks like.

All of your friends have an @ in their names.

Looking at a pageful of someone else's links, you notice that you've been to all of them.

Your dog has its own webpage.

You believe nothing looks sexier than a man in boxer shorts illuminated by a 17" LCD Flat-Panel Monitor.

You check your mail. It says "no new messages." So you check it again.

You code your homework in HTML and give your intsructor the URL.

You don't know what sex your three of your closeset friends are, because they have nuetral screennames and you never bothered to ask.

You name your children Google, Friendster and Blogger

You miss more than five meals a week downloading the latest MP3's off Kazaa Lite.

You start looking for hot HTML addresses in public restrooms.

You wake up at 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom and stop and check your e-mail on the way back.

Your virtual girlfriend finds a new sweetheart with a larger bandwidth.

You buy a Captain Kirk Chair with a built in keyboard and mouse.

Your wife makes a new rule: "The computer can not come to bed"

The last hottie you picked up was only a jpeg.

You put a pillow case over your laptop so your lover doesn't see it while youre pretending to catch your breath.

You ask a plumber how much it would cost you to replace the chair in front of your computer with a toilet.

You forget what year it is.

You start tilting your head sideways to smile.

You ask a doctor to implant a terrabyte in your brain.

Your sweetie says communication is important in a marriage...so you buy another computer and network them together so that you can IM each other anytime.

As your car crashes through the guardrail on a mountain road, your first instinct is to search for the "back" button.

All of your friends have an @ in their names.

You start using smileys in your snail mail

You bring a bag lunch to the computer.

You have withdrawals if you are away from the computer for more than a few hours.

You take a speed reading course to keep up with the scrolling.

You type faster than you think.

You double click your TV remote.

You can now type over 70 WPM.

You check your e-mail and forget you have real mail.

You go into withdrawals during dinner.

You rank your friends by the amount of bandwith they have.

You have "Googled" all your friends to try to find out anything interesteing that they are not telling you and you can use against them later.

You message someone via IM when they are less than 20 feet away.

The sound of the keys clicking turns you on.

You have more browsers than friends in the real world.

You actually say I-M-O and A-T-M to real friends rather than 'in my opinion' and 'at the moment'. And they give you strange looks.

You run four chat programs all at once... Yahoo Messenger, ICQ, AIM and MSN

You sign off and your screen says you were on for 3 days and 45 minutes.

You purchase a vanity car license plate with your screen name on it.

You say "he he he he" or "heh heh heh" instead of laughing.

You talk on the phone with the same person you are sending an instant message to.

You get up in the morning and go online before getting your coffee.

Your teacher or boss recommends a drug test for the blood shot eyes.

The letters have come off your keyboard from excessive use.

You order pizza online - because you can't be bothered to call.

You say "SCROLL UP" when someone asks what it was you said.

You look at an annoying person off line and wish that you had your ignore button handy.

You enter a room and get greeted by 25 people with {{{hugs}}} and ** kisses**.

You're on the phone and say BRB.

The last movie you've seen was on your Quicktime player.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to the internet.

I'M BAAAACCCKKKKKK!!

Hey Readers! Hope you all missed me!:P Sorry I havn't written anything in the past few days, but my phone lines were dead. Since I don't have DSL, naturally I wasn't able to be online. Man, talk about internet withdrawl!! I didn't think I'd make it past Saturday night, but I found stuff to keep me occupied. I read just about every book I own, and worked on a model. Well, now I know I can survived being stranded on a deserted island!! :P

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have quite a pleasant (?) predicament. One of my lady friends online has a crush on me. Her name is April and she lives in West VA too. I have so find some way to let her down easy, because the feeling isn't mutual. Don't get me wrong, she's a really nice person, but I have a few misgivings about her feelings. First off, she just got divorced from a guy that beat her, and second, she was pregnant with twins, but had a miscarriage. I dunno if she really likes me or is just on the rebound. Anyway, we shall see....

THE ONLY TIME IVE REALLY REALLY WANTED TO KILL SOMEONE.....

Was back in 7th Grade. I had this teacher, Mrs. Bailey, who was a total BITCH! Anyway, I was out of school for a couple days because I was sick. We were going on a field trip the day I got back, and I was in no mood for being messed with, having had a bad kidney infection. So here I am dressed in jeans and a sweat shirt, and everyone else is dressed up. So..she rips into me, insulting my clothes. So I ripped into her. I said " This is the only type of stuff I can afford, we aren't rich ya know." She was highly unimpressed, and I ended up getting in trouble. I felt so embarrassed, being insulted in front of the whole school.

CONGRATULATIONS TO 2 OF MY FRIENDS!!

Tomorrow, Kat, my best friend in the whole world, and her BF Keith, also a friend of mine, will be taking the plunge into that institution known as Marriage. I am sooo happy for them! If not for a lack of money, right now instead of writing this, I'd be on my way to Iowa to attend the wedding. A toast to you 2 on a happy life together!

FINALLY, AN ENDING

Today, a jury in California sentenced Scott Peterson to death for the murder of his wife Laci and their unborn son. As a respector of all women, I can't for the life of me understand why a man could do something like that to a woman. He could have divorced her, but I guess that was too easy for him. Even though he wa sentanced to death, he'll probably never see the death chamber, since there are over 600 people on Death Row in California. Hopefully, he'll be haunted by this crime the rest of his life.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY WOMEN LIKE TO SHOP!!

Yesterday I went with my Mom and Sister Julie to go Christmas shopping. I'm not much of a shopper, so I don't understand the thrill some women get from shopping. The only thrill I get from it is going out to eat:P Anyway...got my Christmas shopping done!!

I MISS HOCKEY!

I'm a big hockey fan, and this lockout is really getting on my nerves! I know the Caps have been a really bad team the past few years, but I still miss em! I hope that the owners and players can reach a new labor agreement really quick!

A QUICK SITE REVIEW

While surfing last night, I came across a very interesting and funny site. I Hate Pat Robertson Is a much needed site slamming Pat Roberstson, Jerry Fallwell, and the rest of the Religious Right. While I am a Christian, I do not agree with the way these people have infiltrated their way into the workings of our Government.

A REDEDICATION

Lord, I know I've strayed from you the past 4 years, ever since Mom got hurt. Please forgive me. Lord, please help me forgive all those people that have wronged me, because I think that's what is keeping me from experiencing all that you have for me. Please show me what you want me to do in and with my Life. Please give me the patience to wait on the woman you've made for me, and give me the strenght to overcome my lonliness. Please help me be a better son, brother, uncle and friend. I know that the key to happiness is letting you control all facets of my life.

IN MEMORIAUM

Here's to all the Sailors, Soldiers, and Marines who died during the attack on Pearl Harbor 63 years ago. Expecially the over 1600 men who died abord the battleships USS Arizona and USS Oklahoma. Also, thank you to all our service people involved in the Iraq War.

MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST

This being the Christmas Season, here are some of the things I'd like:


The Battlestar Galactica DVD Box Set

Any kind of ship or airplane model

Books, history or other wise

Clothes

A better digital camera


and that old standby...Money

HISTORY

For those of you who know me, this doesn't come as a surprise, but I love history. It has been a hobby of mine since I was a kid, maybe 9 0r 10. that, combined with my love of reading, had made me a veritible fountain of information. Ask me any thing about US history, wars, or ships, and I can probably give you an answer. I guess I like history because it's interesting to learn and know about the people and events that happened in the early part of your life and before you were born.

SMOKING CAN BE HAZARDOUS TO YOUR HEALTH IN MORE WAYS THEN ONE!

Today, My Mom almost wrecked her car because of smoking. While we were going to the store, she dropped her cigarrette, went to look for it, and ran the car into a fence. Luckily the only thing hurt was the passenger side mirror, but it could have been worse.....

WHAT A WASTE OF TALENT!

I believe Ricky Williams must be a total nutcase! How could someone just give up a career as one of the NFL's best running backs to leave for a life of pot smoking, learning how to be a holistic healer, and just go around the world? Sheesh......

AN EMBARRASSING EPISODE FROM MY CHILDHOOD!

When I was a kid, I was really afraid of the dark. One day, when I was in first grade, I had to go to the bathroom. While I was in there, the Electricity went out, and so did the lights! Sooooo, I freaked out, Started screaming, and got the hell outta that dark bathroom. Only problem was, my pants were still down. How embarrassing! Some of my classmates who were there were still ribbing me about it in high school. Oh well....

MY STRUGGLES WITH FAITH

Over the past 4 years, I have been engaged in a struggle with my faith. I know God has his reasons for everything, but I still don't have any idea why he would allow my Mom to get hurt. Mom did nothing to deserve what happened to her. She's handling it well, but as for me....I'm not handling it so well. I can't go to sleep without crying, and it just kills me seeing her struggle having to do things with just one hand. Lord, I'm not asking for sympathy, I just want to know why!

HELLO TO EVERYONE READING THIS ON BLOGEXPLOSION

Hi to everyone who has read this on Blogexplosion! For those of you who don't know what that is, Blogexplosion is a service that lets you surf other people's blogs. I've read quite a few interesting ones!